Do-Over (A Jayy Von Monroe FanFic; BoTDF)

Chapter 8; "I'm Not Sure What's Going To Happen."

Hunter pulled me closer, pressing herself against me. "Thank you," she whispered, her voice raspy and quiet.

"No problem Hunter."

She gave a weak smile, trying desperately to hide... something. That much I could tell, I could see it in her eyes. But that's all they gave away. "J-Jayy?"

"Yeah?"

"Is there something wrong? You seem...off around me. Like you're nervous to even make a joke around me."

"What d'you mean? We've all been joking around since you got back."

"Yeah, but... from you it seems...forced somehow."

"I don't know what you mean Hunter."

She sighed. "Jayy c'mon, I know something's wrong, so just talk to me. Maybe we could fix it."

"No Hunter," I said with a sigh. "We couldn't."

"Jayy, don't be like that. A lot has changed since I left. And even then, I said some things I didn't mean. I don't want you to be upset or hurt because of something I just said to be an ass."

"Look, Hunter, just don't worry about it. It's my own problem, I'll live." I should've known that one wouldn't work.

"Jayy-"

"No Hunter," I snapped, a warning tone in my voice.

She swallowed, looking at me with a searching look, begging me to take it back. Guilt finally showed itself in her eyes and she looked down. "S-Sorry Jayy."

I nodded, but said nothing. I wanted so badly to comfort her, to tell her exactly what was the problem, but I knew the complications that would cause. She'd already made it clear over a month ago that she wanted nothing to do with dating me ever again. But she also said she didn't want me to say hello, and now she's cuddling me. And she did say a lot has changed... No. I didn't even let myself think about it, fantasizing what useless, and it made reality more painful. There wasn't a point in it. Hunter was just a friend now, and one that I cared about a lot, but nonetheless nothing more. No matter what.

I bit back tears from the harsh truth I was torturing myself with, but Hunter dared a glance and immediately noticed. "Jayy... You poor thing." She kissed my cheek. "I'm sorry okay? I know I've been hurting you a lot and I should just let that be that, but... I think I still... Nevermind. I'm sorry I hurt you Jayy, I'll let it go. Maybe you should go back to your room."

I blinked. Tears fell, but I ignored them. "A second ago you didn't ever want me to leave."

"Maybe I changed my mind," she said, looking away, pretty much anywhere but towards me.

I sighed. "I figured," I said in a dead-sounding monotone. I just had to stay apathetic until I got to my room, just until then. "I'll send Aussie in for you. He'll make sure nothing happens." She nodded and I walked out. "Aus," I said, looking at the wall behind him and not acknowledging the tears running down my cheeks "Watch her please. She had one of her magic-less dreams involving Ronnie. I'm not sure what's going to happen." This was the truth, if the vague truth.

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So I've been throwing a couple ideas around in my head and I'd like to know what you guys think of them. Comment your responses, but I'd prefer you not PM me because I'd like for others to be able to see your ideas too and find out what all of you as a whole think about them. I tried to send this note to all followers as an update, but WattPad isn't friends with me. That said-

-I'm thinking about making a YouTube channel under BeliefInFiction. This channel would not impact my ability to keep chapters updated because I keep anything YouTube related on the weekends, when I am using an actual computer, screen recorder, standing mic, etc, whilst my stories are mainly updated during the week because I prefer to type on my iPod which doesn't cause the hand cramping I'm feeling now. However, as some of you probably remember from when I was SkullOfGothix, I have tried YouTube channels for various things in the past without much result. I would not be able to show my face (rule from my parents), but obviously I will be speaking and such. I was thinking about doing anything kind of book/literature related, and I'd be happy to do multiple different things on the channel, so feel free to leave me your ideas.

Mine so far are:
Creepy-Pasta/Oneshot Readthroughs (Of any YouTube allowed graphicness)

Book Reviews (Like actual books - I've always loved the idea of these because it helps me get a feel of the book before I buy it, as I personally buy books even before I read them)

Read-Throughs of any of my own stories on here - So if any of you have that thing I know I have where you need to know HOW they said it, you can, and also places where Hunter might sing I could actually put a voice to those songs, as Hunter is not me, but her original songs are songs that I have actually made and put a tune to long before Tell Me Why or at least long before they appear in the book

Q&A's - If any of you have ever had any questions for me I could answer them in a more personal way as opposed to my typing the responses
 
And stuff like that. Like I said, I'm really curious about what you think about this, what ideas you have, and if you would be interested in watching (or really listening) to me talk about this stuff, because as you all know I need to know someone is listening before I'm willing to talk-so to speak- and I'd like to see some of you there if I did that.

If there's anything I'm not quite thinking about or you have an idea not about the content of the videos, but something related (such as what to put in the screen while I talk that would hold your interest, but isn't too distracting), obviously feel free to tell me about that too!

I will keep my WattPad tab open and ready for viewing this weekend so I can see what you guys think.

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