Do-Over (A Jayy Von Monroe FanFic; BoTDF)

Chapter 14; "Fuck The Rest, Okay?"

I tried to swallow, my throat tight from crying for so long. Jayy had been on his back talking to me for hours, with my head on his shoulder and an arm on his chest the entire time. One of my legs rested between his, purely because, at the angle I was at, it was the only comfortable position for said leg. For a while it had been just him comforting me, then slowly that began to mix and alternate with somewhat legitimate conversations.

I cuddled into his side and yawned for the millionth time. "Tired?" he asked with a laugh.

"Yeah..." I admitted through another yawn. "After all, this is the most comfortable I've been since..." I thought for a moment. "Well, a while."

He chuckled and nodded, closing his eyes. "I'm pretty comfortable myself. Feel free to sleep, if you want to. I'm not arguing."

"You sure?" I asked nervously.

"Yeah, 'course. Why wouldn't I be?"

"Just...Current events."

"Listen," he said softly, but seriously. "Let's save current events for later."

"Kay," I said, just beginning to relax. "I'll shelve it with history. And... chemistry."

He gave me a look. "Why chemis-ah. I get it. But... we're shelving that?"

"Jayy!" I yelled, hurt.

He sighed and shook his head. "No, no, I wasn't saying it like that. I meant that I didn't realize that was something we were saving for later. I thought that was out, completely. You sorta made it seem that way..."

"O-Oh... Sorry, I just..."

Jayy's POV

Guilt flooded her eyes and I gently kissed her forehead, trying to combat it. "Shh... Hey, it's alright."

She nodded, but tears were forming and threatening to fall. I pulled her fully onto my chest. Not really knowing what to do for her, I hummed softly, trying then to calm us both down 'and' to figure out what song it was.

I found out when she started singing. "I spent my life always,
Walking in the shadows.
Scared, alone, locked away,
Inside my castle." I stopped after that, earning a look of disapproval.

"Sorry," I said quietly. "Didn't realize what song it was."

"So you stop?"

I chuckled. "Well yeah. It's a little too relatable right now," I admitted. "At least for me."

"It doesn't have to be. It's too soon now, I'd be playing on a rebound. But...later...?"

I looked at her. "Are we really gonna do that again? Besides, that time was to protect you, now it's for me, and I don't want it. I understand if you need your time to process this, but that's your grace period. I don't want another one after it's over."

"If I don't give you one to prevent a rebound... There won't be one."

I sighed, a little frustrated. "Look, I feel guilty even talking about this right now, what with everything, but while we're alone and on the subject... Say we don't take a grace period? What would happen now?"

Hunter sighed. "I almost died Jayy... And Jason just did-"

"I know, I know, dumb question, I'm sorry."

"Let me finish." She scolded, a little playfulness in her scared, shaky voice. "When you're left for dead, Jayy, you think about a lot. I realized that it wasn't your fault about Axel, and you should know nothing about me and J was either... it wasn't even your fault we broke up." She gave me a rough, needy kiss, only to pull back after around ten seconds. "I'm sorry," she whispered through a shaking, stuttered breath.

"It's okay Hunter. It wasn't your fault either. You needed someone to blame and I was close-by. And...maybe that was the reason I acted like a dick. I didn't want to be the scapegoat. But I was a jerk about it... I don't blame you."

"Still..." she mumbled guiltily.

This time I pulled her into the heated kiss. "I love you Hunter. Fuck the rest okay? I love you."

She pulled me closer, her arms wrapped tightly around my neck as mine rested around her waist. "I love you too."