One Shots - REQUESTS OPEN

Chapter 37 For Me

Warnings: Suicide! Self harm everything along those lines

"I want to die" I whispered to myself laying on the cold kitchen floor watching the skylight, snow continued to fall silently down sticking to the floor outside.

"I want to die" I whispered again feeling the cold creep up my back slowly closing my eyes all of the windows and back door were wide open while I lay there soaking wet in thin clothes hoping I would either freeze to death or get pneumonia and later die, it's not that I couldn't kill myself with a blade or knife it's just I don't want anyone having to clean up my blood, my family, a forensic worker it just never seemed right I guess.

I opened my eyes and closed them again as the wind blew through the kitchen.

"Outside" I whispered hearing a car pull up, I stood up my bones cracking and painful, locking the front door I moved towards the back door walking out into the snow and laid down in the cold snow hoping it would take me before the person figured out how to get to me.

I closed my eyes once again avoiding the gaze of the bright stars, the snow cloud had parted just enough for them to see me, the taunting eyes of passed friends and family their gaze burning the coldness away.

"Please...i want to die...let me die" I whispered my voice broken, sore teeth chattering, skin frozen and numb.

"SHANNON!" I heard from the front of the house I opened my eyes and looked around but closed them again I'll be dead soon anyway.

"SHANNON LET ME IN!" Another deep shout came from the front of the house, trying to remember the voice but my mind came up blank hearing movement from my front door seeing it bang on impact of being kicked but yet it stayed steady.

"SHANNON!" the voice shouted again feeling the snow begin to cover me, I stopped caring about the distant voice and relaxed into the snow my whole body numb but severely painful.

Hearing a large bang from the front of my fence and then harsh puffing, but I didn't care a few more minutes and it would be too late.

Minutes or maybe seconds passed and a crunch came from near the fence, snow crunching under heavy footsteps.

No I need to die I thought pain instantly hit me as the person pushed away the snow hitting parts of my body on accident.

"Shannon sweetheart" the man said placing his warm hands on my cheeks.

"Leave me" I managed to say pain hitting every bone as the man pulled me up and out of the snow quickly laying me on my usually soft couch feeling the pain worsen at the pressure.

"Please" I whispered pushing my eyes open kind blue eyes looked down at me.

"Shannon" he said again my eyes focused on the details of his face until I noticed his lips and then his eyes again knowing he had shut the door and windows no longer feeling the wind I let a tear slip as I remembered him.

"Shannon" he whispered again laying his jacket over me I managed to look up at him.

"H...Hen...ry" I managed to say choking as tears continued down my face.

"You're okay you'll be okay I'm here" Henry whispered seeing large cuts and old scars covering my body, pain meeting his eyes as he knelt beside me.

"Let me go" I whispered he shook his head.

"I can't...i love you" he whispered back a tear falling down his face as he looked at me.

I looked up at the ceiling the skylight showing stars once again one brighter then all the others.

"Please" Henry whispered asking for permission to help me, I looked at him and nodded as he took my hand kissing it lightly.

"I love you Shannon" Henry whispered his smile soon showing his lips turned up, I offered a smile which did not meet my eyes, but it seemed to reassure him as he grabbed multiple blankets.

"I will be with you always" Henry whispered laying down beside me trying to get my temperature up I layed my head on his chest as he tried to keep me awake.

"I love you" I whispered kissing his chest feeling his hand hit my cold back holding me closer to him as he kissed my head only just feeling his lips.

Wrote this for myself I had a bad couple months, had this drafted for nearly 5 months and just thought I'd release it.

If you ever feel like this get help please

I love you S xxxx