𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍: 𝟷𝟷:𝟷𝟷 ✅

𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚞𝚝𝚎𝚜𝚝.

𝙈𝙖𝙩𝙩𝙞𝙖 ⓧ

Last night, was probably one of the most amazing nights of my whole life. Personally, I think I made the right decision by coming over and doing all that with Kairi, even though he might regret it later, I loved it.

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⭒ Flashback ⭒

I closed the front door behind me as I took my shoes off and threw my jacket on the floor, not even saying hi to my mom. "Mattia?" she asked but I ran off to my room. Slamming the door behind me and laying down face first on my bed, I felt like there was a piano sitting on my chest, or a piece of my heart was ripped out and stomped on. Just hearing Kairi say all those words, and awful things, made me feel terrible.

"Mattia? What's the matter baby?" my mom asked as she opened the door, I heard her close it behind her and felt the bed did slightly. "K-Kairi." I stuttered as I shoved my face into a pillow and cried, "What did Kairi do?" She asked as she rubbed my back soothingly. I explained the whole thing to her, I had to run over the parts a couple of times because she couldn't understand me over the pillow muffling my words.

"Oh sweetie," she said as he pulled me over, she wrapped her arms around me and held me close. "He-He kissed m-me." I stuttered as I breathed heavily, she patted my back and pushed my hair back. "Sometimes people just need to be open and honest about their feelings baby," She told me, and I nodded, "B-but he said all those terrible things. A-and I don't wanna hate h-him-because-because he's my best friend, but I don't know what to do mama." I said as I leaned on her.

"I'm gonna tell you the truth in my opinion..." she said, I looked up at her expectantly, "I think you love him just as much as he loves you, and you feel like same way about him that he feels about you." She said as she looked down at me with a small smile. "Why?" I asked. "I can't tell you, you already know babe, you've known each other for such a long time, and I think you've always loved him and seen him more than a friend, but your just too scared to admit it, babe." She said, and I looked down at my socks shyly. "You should just tell him, darling, think about it...and tell him." She said, kissing my head once more. We sat there for a bit before she said she had to go start on dinner.

My mom closed the door when she left. I sat down on the floor and reached under my bed, grabbing the small bag of old journals from when I was younger. I opened one of them up and started skimming through it, seeing a few tiny paragraphs about Kairi. I guess my mom was right...there's always been something about Kairi that I've loved. But it was too hard to admit it because I don't want other people to judge me.

- Me and Kairi facetimed today which was exciting, we talked about school and watched an episode of SVU together. -

I read what I wrote last year, smiling a bit because I remember that day, it was so fun just being able to talk to him, I stopped writing about him when I met Cynthia... I remember that day. Looking back, once I started talking to Cynthia, my notes about Kairi stopped.

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I stood in front of Kairi's house door, waiting until he opened it. I looked through the small window at the door, I could see the top of Kairi's head, and he was on his tippy toes. He pressed a button on his phone then opened the door, it had been raining for a while now, and I ran over here just to talk to him. He gave me a confused look, "What are you doing h-" I didn't waste any time before crashing my lips into his.

I pushed him back against the wall and I heard the flatter of his phone and the bat he was holding drop on the floor, what a cutie, he just wanted to protect himself.

He said my name and nickname a few times. And I'm sure you know what happened after that.

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