Binding You To Me Like Cursive

She Loves Black

Winter

Tears almost sprang from my eyes but thankfully the maintenance guy was at my apartment door when I slammed Phoebe's shut. He glanced over and handed me the key.

"Here you are, Ma'am." I took the keys and locked myself in my apartment, sinking to the floor as the taste of her mouth lingered on my tongue. My heart raced so fast a heart attack seemed imminent. I walked to the kitchen and pulled out a bottle of liquor from the top shelf above the refrigerator. I poured a shot, downed it, then poured a couple more, trying to rid her taste. Once the sting of the alcohol had dissipated, the flavor of vanilla was still prominent. I wanted to sit on my balcony and feel the ocean breeze but it was out of the question. I couldn't escape this. I couldn't escape her. Why did she have to do that? Why did she have to kiss me like that?

You wanted it, if you didn't you'd have stopped when she said she was going to kiss you. My subconscious chimed, smirking and mocking me. I couldn't deny it. I had wanted her to kiss me, for awhile now, but just because I wanted it didn't mean I could have it. There were consequences- repercussions to my actions. Maybe she could go around doing fuck all but I had a fiancé who wanted to marry me, I needed to stay loyal to him. I wanted too.

"Fuck yoga," I muttered to myself. I changed into a tight grey short skirt and a matching silk blouse. I wore my hair naturally, slid into black heels and grabbed my phone, purse, and keys. After I'd picked up lunch and was on my way to his office I was still trembling. I still felt the pressure of her pull on my scalp and the spot where her hands had been on me. Kaiden was right. I couldn't be her friend. I couldn't be around her. When I arrived I sauntered up to the front desk and asked for directions. I was sweating and nervous- guilty as hell- but I proceeded up.

"Come in!" He thundered when I knocked on his office door. I stepped through, swamped in his masculine scent. When he seen me he smiled. His office was huge and had towering windows and of course the artful pieces brought something special to the space. "Finally, I've been waiting to see you." I sat the bag of food on the desk and took a seat.

  "I didn't go to yoga, just wasn't feeling up to it." I handed him the food and avoided his eyes. The guilt sat in the pit of my stomach, along with my growing arousal.

  "Okay, I have a dinner tomorrow night. Maybe you can meet some of the wives." I held back my eye roll, was he fucking kidding me? I was 24, and had nothing in common with these women who had kids and mini vans. I just sat back as he talked, not really paying attention to his words. Instead I was back in her apartment, my back against the door and my tongue in her mouth. How she pushed against me and how her pebbled nipples felt against mine even through the clothes. "Babe, you listening?" I looked up, completely lost in the conversation.

  "I'm sorry, I talked to Trice earlier. I miss my parents." I lied, easily if I might add.

  "I know, we'll go visit in a few weeks." I nodded in agreement and finished my food. I couldn't find it in myself to mention what happened with Phoebe. Mostly because I didn't want to admit he was right, and partly because I didn't want him to find more reason for me to stay away from her. Maybe we could still be friends, maybe she could put aside her attraction toward me and we could move on and act as if it'd never happened? That was plausible, right? With that hope in mind I threw out my containers and took a big gulp of water. I looked at my sexy fiancé and my stomach jumped, I needed to get off. Like I never had before.

  I stood and rounded the sleek black desk. Kaiden didn't stop me but rather sat back and enjoyed me. His suit was blue-grey and the navy tie was snug and perfect around his neck. He kept his face shaved and clean, he looked edible. His strong, clean hand found my thigh, and I loved the hungry look in his eyes.

"Office sex?" He grinned like a kid at a candy store. I climbed on top of him, shushing him with my lips.

"Shh, don't talk," I licked his neck, nibbling and sucking his clean skin. His cock grew beneath me, pushing against my sex, feeding the hunger inside me. He peeled off my blouse and bunched up my skirt, exposing my black lace panties. She loves black. I moaned subtly, ignoring the voice in my head reminding me of her. I focused on Kaidens touch, his lips caressing my skin. The feel of his hands groping my butt.

"Fuck me," I groaned, my head dizzy with thoughts I couldn't piece together. I allowed myself to go dizzy with lust and embrace the dopamine.