Hello loves how you been?
Lately I've been really fucking sick and it's annoying i hate the snow whenever i get into it I instantly catch a cold lol but i hope everyone is having a good day or night
P.s Recently someone told me that they rainbowed me and i cant stop saying it so everybody I RAINBOW AND PURPLE YOU GUYS 🏳️🌈💜
Another thing updates will come out a lot soon since i have more free time (especially just a prank)
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"You look so beautiful love i knew that lace would suit you perfectly" mr kim said to me as i shyly walked out the bathroom dressed in the dainty lingerie he brought for me he then pat the bed next to him signaling for me to take a seat
"Now lye onto your back so i can rip it all off" i bit my lips obeying his every command not once regretting how i was so submissive to his every wish
It wasn't always like this things between us spiraled out of no where yet being in love with a married man was never my intention
Sometimes i wonder what he tells his wife and kids just so he could sneak off to me then i get hurt all over again hating myself knowing that at the end of the day he would never choose me
"Chin up baby look at me with those gorgeous eyes of yours" tae's deep voice rang in my ears strumming a sweet symphony that always made my heart race and damn his rough hands knew exactly what i was hoping for,
Possibly crave
"T-touch me" i said barely a whisper i knew that was impossible since he never does a thing like that all he ever does is dress me up in pretty clothing before he makes me strip throwing dollar bills all over the place or other times he would hold me in silence which i didn't mind
It was easy money after all
I hated that I always expected the unexpected "you know I cant if i do we'll have to stop all of this and I don't want that" there he goes being selfish but that didn't stop me from begging
If he could could touch me one last time to make love to me in ways I've never had before then i don't care if this is the end
I needed this
To feed the greedy side of me that wants him all to myself
"Then do what you want to me" i reached up with eager hands wanting nothing but to feel his soft sun kissed skin against my fingertips "we cant continue this any longer you have a family and I don't want to get in between that so i beg you" i said ever so desperately almost feeling guilty at the desolate look on his face "p-please make love to me before we say goodbye for good"
I was taken back when he cupped my face pretty brown eyes sparkling like wasted glitter "are you sure because once we do this there's no going back"
I smiled weakly because i knew one day this would come i just didn't know it would be so soon "i need to forget about what i feel for you anyways right" after that was said his lips pressed against mines softly and i lost it letting the tears I've been holding in from the start fall knowing that i could never feel the irritable sensation of butterflies or the blinding sight of fireworks with anyone else the way i do with him
And it was all his fault
I bitterly wished that we never met that maybe he'll leave his family for me and give into the nonexistent feelings he has for me eventually
Pathetic aren't i?
Tae pushed me back onto the bed as he undressed next went my lingerie except the sheer thigh high socks i had on
I started to cover myself shy to the fact that he was naked as well "dont do that" he pinned my arms above my head kissing my neck making a trail up to my ear before biting it "your so fucking perfect don't ever feel like your not"
How could i feel like i am when I couldn't belong to him
I whined when his free hand traveled my skin mapping it as if he never wanted to forget the feel of it while all i could do was adore his beauty from above me
After this i know it'll be the most difficult thing to forget
I gasped when he let go tongue going down my abdomen eyes never once looking away from mines and it freezes me,
Heart pounding out of my chest because we were really going to do what i deemed as the unfeasible
Slow yet agonizingly tae kisses the places no other man has ever been and it's infuriating
Somewhat dreamlike
Something that should've never happened in the first place
One by one his fingers work me open and as they do he connects our foreheads staring fondly at me while our hearts beat in the same rhythm as one
I reach up caressing his face one again trembling when his cold lips start to kiss my tears away "t-tell me you love me" i said knowing it wasnt the truth "even if its a l-lie i need to hear it"
"I love you jungkook" taehyung leaned in to capture my lips swallowing the loud moans that threatened to escape them "i love you, i love you, i love you" he repeated making my heart melt
"H-hurry" i urged him on but he just ignored me taking his precious time with my body i take the time to tangle my fingers in his red curls doing as he did to me before
I know i should let my self forget what he feels like it's stupid to want to remember this but my heart wouldn't let me besides what really caught my attention was the way he looked at me
His eyes were telling it all at this point
"Please tell me to stop" he said face planted into my chest "we still have time to forget about all of this" i hated hearing his voice so broken but i could never bring myself to speak those words
"We can't and you know this, i-im in love with you taehyung! i dont want to be your side lover I want you all to myself completely when i know i cant" i finally confessed getting nothing but silence from him
The type of silence that slaps you in the face and makes your skin heat up while your heart clenches
"I know your married but what am i to do when all i see is you?!" I teared up putting his hands back onto my body "now end this so we both can move on with our lives" and he did as he made love to me throughout the night telling me how much he loved me
That i was the only one for him
Yet when i woke up the harsh reality hit harder than i thought it would especially when he wasn't next to me
Now i see why they call this place the heart break hotel because my heart was broken
Shattered into a million pieces
