Part 49 apologies and explanations

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Coles POV
To my surprise it was unlocked....

I opened the door and walked in. I saw her in her bed laying down. Probably sleeping.

I felt tears come down. I feel so much guilt. I lashed out on her when she was only trying to comfort me. I climbed into her bed, and scooted closer to her.

"Cole I'm okay I promise" I heard her soft voice. My heart broke. I went and snuggled her

 I went and snuggled her

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"Lili I'm so sorry" I broke down as I held her close to me. I could hear her sniffle, "it's okay, you're going through a hard time, and you're right I don't know how it feels" she said.

"I shouldn't have lashed out on you. I'm so sorry, I just, it's just hard" I cried. She sighed, "Cole I promise it's normal, I'm not mad at you. Please just talk to me, I hear you crying in your room almost every night. It breaks my heart Cole, to see you so upset." She cried and sniffed.

More tears came down my face, "I'm sorry, I feel like I have to be strong for Oakley, I don't want to let her or even you see me like that, like this." I explained, she turned around and laid her head on my chest. Her gorgeous green eyes met mine.

"Everyone has there demons, even me. Some are just darker than others" she said mumbling the second sentence. She was probably talking about cutting herself. I didn't want to ask her but I couldn't let her keep doing this to herself. Sighed sitting up a little more.

"Lili." I started in a shaky voice. She looked at me concern. "Cole is everything okay?" She asked me.

I took in another breath, "Lili are you- are you hurting yourself?" I asked nervously, I could see the fear in her face as I asked. She looked away at the bed frame speechlessly as her eyes filled with tears.

"How?" She asked on the edge of tears. I could see tears spill out of her eyes. "Your maids, they um- I heard them talking about how you might be cutting yourself, and I just, Lili you mean so much to me, I don't even know how to process it. I mean you're too precious. I just I love you so much" I broke down letting out a sob.

She put her hand on my cheek and I could tell she was trying to hold in her sobs. "Cole I'm sorry, when I do it's just, I feel like I deserve it, I feel like since I hurt you, I should, I should feel pain too" she sobbed, my heart dropped. I didn't know what to say. "Lili, you don't hurt me, you have never hurt me. You don't deserve pain or sadness. Gosh lili you deserve so much more joy and happiness then I could ever give you" I cried

She just snuggled into my chest more. "I love you so much" she said in a whisper between her cries.  I played with her hair, "I love you too" I said finally calming down.

"Lili please just promise me, even if I'm angry at you, if you ever feel the need or want to hurt yourself, please just talk to me. You can always come to me. I will always be here even in the darkest of times." I said to her I could see her smile which made my stomach twist.

"I can't promise, but I will sure try" she said. I sighed, "okay, I guess. Please just don't hurt yourself Lili. You're so fragile and perfect, I can't handle seeing you in pain" I pleaded.

She smiled and tilted her head up to look at me and nodded as we leant in for a kiss. I love her lips, I love her everything about her, she's is just so perfect! We both pulled away to catch our breath. She had a big smile on her face, as did I. She took a breath and laid on her pillow.

I was confused but then understood, she wanted me to get comfortable before she snuggled me. I smiled as I laid my head on the pillow and twisted a little before I was comfortable. She smiled before scooting closer and snuggling her head into my chest. I played with her hair as we both drifted off.

It still shocked me that she had even chosen me. I mean yes she came here for me, but not all of the girls actually liked me. Some just wanted the crown or the money. The minute I laid eyes on her in the garden, something in me clicked.

She was and is the most beautiful soul my eyes have ever seen.

Romeo and Juliet together again at last♥️

Okay so I won't be posting tmr... hope all of you have a great night! Celebrate that this hell of a year is FINALLY over! k ly guys!

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