the royal selection

Part 10 feelings on a book

Lili's POV
Lunch wasn't that exciting. I had a few conversations with the girls but none of them were interesting. Once lunch was over, I went back up to my room, got my diary where I wrote poems and headed to the woman's room.

Once I got there only rachel and madi were there. Seemed like they were getting along pretty well for a four and a two, but I think it's mostly because they had the same rude attitude.

Before they noticed I arrived, I quickly walked to the couch in the counter and sat down. I opened my book and starting thinking of what to write. Something about Archie, and how he hurt me? Then I quickly wrote some ideas down of what I could be about and like the topic of it. Before I heard my name be called.

"Oh lili!" I heard as I looked up to see rachel and madi walking over. Oh no! I just smiled "what are you doing" madi asked in her fake nice voice "um I am just writing poetry, it's something I do when I am stressed" I smiled as they nodded "well can we see it" rachel asked rudely "uhm I will let you know when I finished this poem, that I am writing, but no not yet" I said smiling, trying my best not to lash out on them.

Rachel scoffed as they both nodded and walked away, with annoyed faces. I wish they could be eliminated already! I just ignored it and looked back down at my poem.  I miss Archie so much. Even though he doesn't miss me a little bit, I can't help it! I really loved him, and he just threw it away like it was nothing!

But I want only the best for him, and if that means he ends up with his new girl, so be it. And I have also heard all the girls eliminated yesterday already men lined up for them. It will be ok I tell myself, and carry on writing my poem.

For the next hour I have put a few words together, but nothing fits how I feel. ; heart broken, joy, grateful, sad. It's like I am mixed emotions.

Another 30 minutes past before I finally finished the poem. As I was writing the last word, the queen came in. There were about 20 girls in here now so we all stood up and curtsied. She also curtsied and went came over to me.

Wait coming over to me! Oh gosh. "hi, lady lili! I am trying to learn a little about everyone here, and it just so happens your first." She said smiling as she gently sat next to me. "Hello your majesty" I nodded and curtsied again nervously "what's this?" she asked pointing to my book.

"Oh this, Um well the simplest way to put it, is I write poetry in here on how I feel. But they aren't like rhymes, more like long quotes." I explained as she smiled "that's really nice, would you mind if I read one" she asked. Oh no! Yes I did mind, but I couldn't let her know. "Of course, let me just finish writing this" I said as I wrote the last word then gave it to her.

The poem:

we use people whether we want to admit it or not, we use people for moments or months or years, it's a selfish thing we do, telling someone we'll love them forever until that forever ends after however long. You couldn't have fathomed an end when you were with them, and now you can't imagine a world in which there still here. Our forevers are so fleeting they almost mean nothing, so I stopped saying it. It's enough to say I love you and have it end there. I won't spoil already perfect words with a time stamp because even forever has an expiration date. No always, no forever just now.

                                       -ꪶ𝓲ꪶ𝓲 𝘳ꫀ𝓲ꪀꫝꪖ𝘳𝓽

(that is like my favorite poem from lili)

I looked up to see the queen reaction, and she was really focused I couldn't really see any expression. Embarrassment took over my face. She then looked up at my worried face and smiled. "I am sorry if you don't like it it's just how I'm-" I quickly spoke before she interrupted me. "Oh dear I loved it. I am just amazed at how well written it is." She explained as I had a surprised look.

I nodded "I am really glad you like it" I said before I looked around the room to see girls shooting daggers through there eyes to me. "Um I hate to say it, but you better go talk to the other girls" I said as the queen turned around. And the girls immediately went back to what there were doing, but not quick enough for the queen to see. "I guess your right, well goodbye darling this will probably be the last time I talk to you for a while, but please keep writing those poems, they truly are amazing" she said smiling, leaving me confused.

Was I getting eliminated? Why weren't we going to talk for a while? So many questions! I then headed back to my room to relax a little before dinner. Also I was done writing my poem, so I didn't really know what to do. Once I left the women's room, I decided to go to the garden instead of my room.

Once at the garden I looked around. This place would never get old. I just hope I have one at least a bit similar to my house when I get married! One that was filled with greens, and all kinds of flowers, but mostly white roses! Those are my favorite.

I then wondered. Would anyone even want me after I get eliminated! I mean would they actually want to be with me? Or want a girl from the selection. So many thoughts wondered through my head before a guard came up to me "excuse me miss it's time for dinner would you like me to lead you to the dining room?" He asked nicely.

"That won't be necessary, thank you for telling me though" I said as I got up and made my way to the dining room. Half of the girls were already there so I didn't have to be the last one. I quickly made my way to the seat next to Emma.

She was having a conversation with Chelsea before she turned to me. "oh hey when did you get here" she said happily. "um just a few minutes ago" I said and she nodded. "Anything new" she asked me "well not really! I talked to queen today" I said and she smiled

"I heard! All the girls are saying you made her really upset and that she was really sad talking to them" she said confused "of course they did, no it's a different story" I said smiling but also annoyed the girls are making up lies about me.

"Care to explain" she asked curiously "well she asked to read one of my poems and when she did she said she was amazed" I said smiling she then smiled too "oh my gosh lili that's so cool" she said excitedly.

I giggled as then royal family entered. We then all stood and curtsied before the king allowed us to sit. They then started bringing the food out. It looks so good! I forget what the food is called, but I know it's some type of chicken.

I was enjoying my food when Emma tapped my shoulder "lili the prince is staring" she said as I looked around the room for the prince before I saw him eating his food "no it looks like he is enjoying his food" I said confused she then giggled "that sneaky little prince stopped staring before he was caught" she whispered as we both giggled.

Dinner soon finished, and I made my way to my room. Today has been so exhausting! Once I got in my room my maids were there waiting to get me changed. I told them about today as they got me ready for bed. They were walking out the door, but before they could shut it Anne whispered "there is a letter at your desk for you" and closed the door. A letter at my desk for me?

I made my way to my desk and there it was. A envelope with nothing written on it. I was so confused. Who could this be from? Our families aren't aloud to send letters until after the first week. It's only day two! I opened the letter and read it.

Hello darling,

I am sorry we couldn't talk more in the garden today. I really wish we could! I enjoyed having someone to talk to. My mom also told me all about your poetry and how amazed she was! If your okay with it, do you think I could read some of yours? I understand if your not comfortable with it yet though. Lastly, my little sister Oakley is coming to meet all the girls tomorrow. And she can't stop talking about how excited she is to meet the girls you especially. Anyways I hope you had an amazing day after all that chaos this morning! Sleep well lovely!
-ᑕOᒪᗴ

wow! He is so much more normal than i thought! He is so sweet and kind. And now that i think about it handsome!

Oh no lili! You cant fall for the prince! Your supposed to leavthe palace and live a normal life with a mant you love, Not the prince!

Oh no. I just cant help it. I need to remember how annoying he is! How mean he is. So i just go to bed, Hoping these feelings would vanish by morning time.