the royal selection

Part 30 trust issues

Lili's pov
I laid my arms on his shoulders, as he placed his hands on my waist. I sighed. I missed this feeling. We started dancing. I didn't really know what to say.

Coles POV
"I'm sorry" I heard her soft voice say. It almost gave me butterflies, after not hearing it for two days. "I'm sorry that you feel that way. That you feel like I think the competition is about me. But I'm not sorry for what I said. I meant it" she said a little nervous. My heart hurt a little.

I nodded and sighed. "I'm sorry for yelling at you. I get over worked. Anxious. Mad. I have no one to talk to. No one who understands how it feels to be in my shoes. No one listens to me. How I feel." I sighed pouring out my emotions. I looked up and saw she had tears in her eyes. It hurt my heart to see her upset. As much as I hated to admit it, I was full of guilt.

For yelling at her, for kissing rachel, just for making her feel like this. I felt as I was the reason for all of her problems.

She took one of her hands off my shoulders to wipe a tear coming off her face. "This was never supposed to happen" I said not really knowing what to say. She nodded.

"It's ok I understand. We made mistakes. I still love you" she re assured me. Hearing those words gave me butterflies. "I love you too" I whispered.

Lili's pov
"I love you too" he mumbled. I smiled. As the music slowly came to an end, I took a shakey breath before saying. "Cole? I'm sorry for starting all these arguments. All I want in the end is for you too be happy. And if that means you marry tatum, or rachel. So be it. It might break me, but you deserve someone who can make you the happiest person if the world. Just know even if you choose another girl, I'll never love anyone as much as I love you" I said.

We switched again. I could feel him look at me. I looked at Archie, he was smiling. "Well done! Your next practice is on Monday! Be ready." Ashley said before we were released.

We still had half an hour before dinner so I decided to head to the library.

"Lili, lili" I heard someone behind me. I turned around to be faced cami and mads. I smiled.

"Are you okay? What's the rush"  I giggled. They did too. "Not to be nosy, but congrats" mads said smiling. I have her a confused look, "congrats?" I asked. "you guys are back together! You know you and prince Cole!" Cami said as Cole was right by us exiting the room. He chuckled.

And I turned red. "We're not together! They're eight other girls here who he is also "together" with! I don't know what the hell is going on in those brains of your guys" I said avoiding the conversation, and walking away before they could keep talking.

I went to the library and sat in my usual chair. I started reading when I felt someone's presence next to me. I screamed and jumped as I realized someone was sitting next to me.

I giggled in embarrassment. "Tatum! What're you doing here?" I asked surprised, as she smiled. "I just came to talk to you, if that's ok" she asked. I smiled.
"Of course but aren't you doing like something fun for your birthday!" I asked a little confused.

She shook her head "not really anymore, that was this morning" she said smiling. I nodded. "So what did you want to talk about?" I asked curiously.

"Prince Cole." She said my heart dropped a little. Why did she want to talk about him. "Umm prince Cole? What about him?" I asked confused.

"We are like the main girls he's into. I want to know about your relationship with him. I want to get close, I don't want to have a competitive relationship with you" she said. I nodded. "Uhm well I like to keep that kind of stuff private" I said.

She frowned a little. "Fine I will talk first, then maybe you'll feel comfortable telling me" she said as she went on. "So we have kissed a couple times. I've been to his room, and um well I don't know I just like really like him" my heart hurt a little when she told me she's been to his room.

I just brushed it off. "Uhm, ok well, we have also kissed a few times, I haven't been to his room, but I also really like him" I said lying a little. I wasn't going to tell anyone I love him and he loves me. "Do you want to marry him?" She asked bluntly.

Coles pov
I need to talk to lili but I couldn't find her in her room so I'm headed to the library. She left me confused after what she said, as I got outside the library. "Do you want marry him" I heard a voice say.

It was tatums, I could tel by the pitch, she had a more loud and straight forward voice. I decided to stay outside the door to see who she was talking to. "I'm I don't know if I want to speak on that subject tatum. I haven't even told madelaine and cami, anything about mine and his relationship" I heard a voice.

Lili. She was talking to lili. I was confused. They weren't really friends. "Lili I came in here to get closer to you. If you want I can say first" tatum said.

"Well yes, I do want to marry him. I want to be queen and do what's right for this country. I really like him. He's perfect. I can't imagine marrying anyone else" tatum poured her emotions out. It made me happy to hear she felt this way.

But I wanted to hear lilis answer. "Uhm okay I guess. Yes I do want to marry him, but that doesn't mean he wants to marry me. I don't know. I don't want to get my hopes up. I don't want to stay in this competition only to get my heart broken again. But if marrying another girl means, he will grow old with the one he truly loves, I guess he can do that" lili said quiet, making me inch my ear closer to the door.

I didn't know how to feel. Why does she think there is someone else? It's her! She keeps telling me she wants me to be happy with the person I love. I mean right after I said I love you. It's so confusing. "okay tatum, I'm really sorry, but I have to go fix myself before dinner" I heard lili say.

I walked in pretending I just got there. I walked in and bumped into lili. "I'm so sorry" she said as she didn't know it was me. She looked up, and had a look of fear and worry on her face. "Can I talk to you please" I asked. Hoping she'd say yes.

Lili's pov
Nooooo! What if he heard our conversation! I nodded not saying anything. He grabbed my hand and led me to my room. I opened the door and we sat on the bed.

"How long were you there" I asked in worry. "Why don't you think you're the one" he asked confused, but also with a little sadness in his voice.

I scooted closer to him. "Cole I'm scared okay. I don't know. I have horrible trust issues. And after I found the it he cheated on me, I felt as if no man would love me, the same thing would just happened again. I just don't want to get my hopes up. I don't want to think I'm the one and then have you choose tatum" I said looking at him.

He sighed. And nodded "I understand. But I love you. And I promise you, you have a better chance winning than all of the girls here" He said as I nodded. "Thank you. I love you too" I said.

He smiled. "Okay come on, dinner starts in a few minutes. Don't want to keep em waiting" he said. I giggled and got up.

I was then surprised with a kiss. He kissed me. It took me a second before I kissed back. I missed this feeling. He pulled away. And smiled as I did too. "See you at dinner" he said before leaving.

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