Lena's POV
I get ready for our Family meal I have Dan picking me up he has Chantelle in the car and little Charlie who I sit next too and make a fuss off. As we pull out of the estate I see JP turning into the estate and my heart drops.
I had made the effort tonight for my families sake I had actually done my hair and was wearing a beautiful chiffon green dress I had lot of make up on to cover my skin which was rough at the moment.
We get to the restaurant and my Uncle, Aunt and Zane are already there. It's a lovely restaurant they finish serving food at 10AM and then they have live music were people get up and dance and its open until 01.00AM.
We get seated and I am facing outwards Zane sitting opposite me we order our starters and we are all chatting I'm making a fuss of Charlie and there is the normal chit chat banter around the table. A table of four gets seated which is directly opposite our table to were I am looking out......and JP is there. My heart drops I drop my eyes not wanting to make eye contact he is with Pablo, Grace and the girl that Grace was with earlier on the estate. JP must be seeing this girl I feel my eyes well up thinking that I should be sat there with him. I can't stomach this I instantly lose my appetite.
Zane must have clocked my facial expression.
"Le you ok" he asks across the table.
"Can we swap seats Zane" I ask,
"Why" he asks.
"Please Zane " I beg.
We swap and Zane soon realises he smiles at me sadly. At least my back is to the four of them now I can not bear to see him with another girl nice to see he moved on fast.
"Zane I think I'm gonna bail this one" I say in a whisper to him.
"Absolutely not Lena you're a Chandler and we don't run from nothing you need to see this through" he says I know what he's saying but he doesn't know how emotionally this is crushing me.
JP has left his table and heads for the toilet and has walked passed our table thankfully I cant see him as my back is towards his direction but I hear his voice as he says hello to Dan and Zane, Zane leaves the table and follows him out.
When they head back to the tables both JP and Zane are laughing
"Have a drink with us later JP" Zane says.
"Yeah will do" JP says just hearing his voice makes me shiver and I wish it was me he was talking to I don't turn around I can't make eye contact if I saw him and he ignored me I couldn't cope with it.
I get up and leave the table I'm in need of a fag I walk passed their table but do not look in their direction or even attempt to acknowledge them my sixth sense tells me I am being watched but I don't turn around and head for the door.
I spark up and inhale deeply shit I need that as I blow the smoke out hard I am smoking this fag like my life depends on it.
A group of three twenty year olds walk pass me, eyeing me up and down
"Alright sweetheart where have you been all my life" one of them asks as he stops in front of me, eyeing me up.
"Leave off mate if you know what's good for you" I said in a real nasty way.
I turn away carry on smoking my fag they soon piss off. I turn to the restaurant glass window and I look at my reflection when I catch JP looking at me we make eye contact which I pull away from the eye contact and drop my head. I head back into the restaurant I am a shell of myself knowing that someone you care about is disgusted with you which to be fair wasn't all my fault I feel ashamed all over again just like I did when I had the abortion I am completely withdrawn and a shadow of myself. I hate myself.
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Tower Block Dreams
Jugendliteratur*****COMPLETED****** Lena was streetwise. She was feisty and tough, she had to be with the upbringing she had. The one thing Lena wanted was to be loved and Donovan was the man who done that. Despite their age difference and Lena's naivety she n...
