Tower Block Dreams

Giving JP A Send Off

Contains Sexual Content

Lena's POV

I didn't want to know about JP's previous conquests.  I believed him when he said he had never had any real feelings or loved any of them and that he genuinely loved me, however, my gut feeling didn't sit right with me.

He had said that they wasn't official but he called her his "ex" that's a label right there isn't it?  JP had said it was complicated, toxic and one sided to me that sounds like it was more of a relationship then he was letting on?  Maybe I should of let him explain but then again as long as he is being 100 per cent with me about how he feels about me I don't care.

JP never mentioned her name only referred to her as his "ex" or "her".  Like he could not mention her name?  Had she hurt him? When did they split?  Then I started to panic was I a rebound?  I feel that horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach.  It was my own doing I was now analysing this when I should of let him talk his words were

 "Le I need to tell you something about an ex of mine" and I stupidly said I didn't want to know.  If the conversation ever arises again I will let him tell me.

I was a bit offended when he never invited me over to his house to meet his family.  I got that he had not spent any real time with them and he wasn't in London long.  I also knew that JP was also a very private person.  Maybe he didn't want me meeting them. Maybe I wasn't good enough not girlfriend material was that why we was not official and nothing to do with him wanting to wait until he had moved back down South.  Was he even trying to re-locate back to London?

My anxiety, self doubt and lack of  self worth was really kicking in. Only JP brought this out in me I felt like I was 18 years old again.  I start getting paranoid mad thoughts running through my head..... would he already be gone and heading back to Leeds when I go to pick him up?  Was I just a bit of weekend fun and he was settled with someone in Leeds?

Fuck Lena sort yourself out.

I spent the rest of the morning with the kids and my Auntie and Uncle.  Dan and Zane was there in body but not in mind they was both hanging, they had stayed up with Chantelle and Sophia until 3AM drinking chatting and dancing in proper Chandler style.  Sophia had been puking up   all morning and had taken herself back to bed she was in a bad way.  Chantelle looked like death warmed up not able to function.  She had slipped off and left us I found her asleep on the sofa.

I did laugh at them both Chantelle and Sophia had both got the "flavour" last night and had easily drunk two bottles of wine each plus a few beers and shots on top.  They was both fragile Zane had to carry Sophia up to bed last night!

It hits 13:00PM and I decide to get ready to meet JP.  To boost my own confidence I decided to do myself right up to show him what is his.  I shower, exfoliate and wash my hair.  I dry my hair and put on a white short dress that zips up at the front.  I had meant to send the dress back as I thought it was too revealing and slutty but that was just the message I wanted to send to JP.  I had on a plunge bra which done wonders for my cleavage I pull the zip down just enough to show a bit of my cleavage off.  I do my make up and decide on wearing bright red lipstick it always makes my lips look bigger and fuller.  I put on a pair of wedge sandals and head out via the back entrance of the annex.  I did not want any of my family seeing how I was dressed!

I get to JP's ten minutes early and he is already sitting on the wall out the front waiting on me.  Did he not want me knocking?  He heads straight to the car door not even giving me time to take my seat belt off and get out the car.

He opens the car door and gets in.

"Don't you want to put your bag in the boot?" I ask.

I see him look at me up and down and I see his eyes turn dark, his jaw open stunned.