Tower Block Dreams

Being Hungover And A Hypocrite

JP and Lena's POV

JP

I wake up jeez my mouth is dry....actually where am I? I look to the left of me and on the sofa is Zane crashed out - I must of crashed out as well. What a night, I had had a right laugh with Zane and Dan chatting shit, drinking, singing on the Karaoke then moving on to some hardcore dancing in the garden like we was at rave.

I hear voices and follow them to the Kitchen, its Dan and Lena. Dan looks as rough as me.

"I am never drinking again" Dan says in horse voice.

"Drink this Dan I've done you a berrucca" I hear Lena say laughing.

"Cheers Le".

I walk in and Dan is gulping down his drink and turns and says to me

"Morning Handsome" Dan says and continues

 "You look as rough as me Le fix JP one of them drinks".

Lena fixes me a drink, but doesn't look at me. I to gulp it down.

"Who wants breakfast, that will fix you up" Lena says.

We both nod.....me and Dan chat as I watch Lena, she puts the oven on and get the sausages out of the fridge and puts the kettle on she makes a pot of tea for us and a coffee for herself.   She picks up her coffee and her fags and heads out the kitchen doors into the garden. She must be feeling anxious or uncomfortable whilst my head is banging I feel the need to follow her out there.

"Morning Le" I say .  I was feeling different this morning, my true feelings for Lena was rising I was pulled to her, drawn to her could we get back on track like how we was before?

Lena turns and faces me and laughs as she says

"Feeling rough" 

"Corrr you like you would not believe" I say smiling at her locking eye contact with her.

Lena looks away and sparks her fag.

"Regret drinking" she says taking a pull on her fag.

"Massively regret drinking, although to be fair I did have a laugh with your cousins" I say

"That's the thing with REGRET JP at least you are allowed to get over your REGRET with out losing someone you care so much about or being made to feel so ashamed.   You know you actually make me laugh....you tell me you are done with me you tell me to never come knocking on your family's front door again but here you are drinking with my family till the early hours of the morning and stay the night in my family home.  It has to work both ways JP, you don't want me so please give me the space to at least get over you" Lena say nastily and like she meant it, she then gets up and goes to walk away.

"Le wait please....I'm so sorr....." I never got to finish as she cut in there was so much more I was going to say to her.

"What do you what in your sausage sandwich JP, red or brown?" Lena says changing the subject.

I don't answer her I just stare up to her and I can feel the pain my actions have caused her.  I had acted like a prick and I feel crushed why was I so stubborn?  Lena was right I was hypocrite she needed space to get over me? Did I mean that much to her that it hurt her being around me.....she didn't want or couldn't be mates with me she wanted more then that she wanted all of me.

I watch as Lena heads back to the kitchen and make everyone breakfast.  I keep trying to gage eye contact with Lena but she was focused on everything else accept me.  It was like she was putting on a front in front of her family and me.  Whilst we all tuck into breakfast I notice Lena hadn't made herself anything to eat and she quietly slips out of the kitchen.

I want to run after her but I can't not in front of her family.  I need to speak to her in private to see if maybe just maybe we can pick up were we left off?  Zane, Jimmy and Tanya have now also joint us in the Kitchen as we all leisurely sit round chatting.  About twenty minutes have passed when Lena comes back into the kitchen washed and dressed like she is going out somewhere.  She has her hair down and a full face of make up.

"Right I'm off out, see you later" Lena says.

"Lena you wanting dinner, nice big fat lamb roast with all the trimmings, think we all need it"  Tanya says who is also hanging and continues....

"JP you are more then welcome to stay for a Sunday Roast".

I look at Lena searching her face for her permission or any kind of reaction.  If I stay for dinner at least I can be in her company some more and hopefully get to talk with her.

"Ahh no thanks Auntie Tanya, I'm having dinner out, I'll pop over tomorrow" Lena says and continues as she looks at me

"But JP feel free to sit and have dinner with my family" she says no one else picked up on the sarcastic tone in her voice except for me.

I feel crushed she has gone from heartbroken to hating me.  She can see the confusion on my face.  Her family are all to hanging to question where Lena is going.  That was the last time that Lena and I had a proper conversation and was in each others company.

Lena's POV

I head out.....I don't know where I am heading, who I am going to see, or who I am having dinner with!!

I had seen the confusion on his face.  Who did he think he was fucking was? To speak to me how he did, treat me like I am scum but to then think it was OK to hang out with cousins and stay at my family home.  I did need space from him I couldn't handle being around him and I knew that we could never just be friends.  I did cut in when he went to apologise and maybe I should of heard him out, but it would only have been to have eased his conscience.  He didn't want me back he had made that clear on so many occasions.  It's time to repair myself.

I head to the park deep in my own thoughts my plan now is to completely forget about JP blank him out of my life.  Finish school with no trouble dramas or strife and definitely no lads!

"Lena" I hear my name being called.

I look over and I see Millie waving at me......Millie became my lifeline.

There was no happy ending me and JP saw each other at school but we was still very distant.  We didn't even really speak. It still hurt me, but I was determined it wasn't to take over my life. I had become really good friends with Millie, I had been judgemental of her, to be fair she was a really good influence on me, I would forever be grateful for our friendship.

When I completed 6th Form I didn't go prom, I wanted out of there. I saw the Facebook and Instagram  posts of the prom and it hurt, seeing everyone enjoying themselves, having a laugh, having fun.

There was pictures of JP he looked gorgeous in his suit his date for the prom was Sam, and there was pictures of them together  Sam was done up like her life depended on it her make up and hair professionally done she wore a beautiful Jade green prom dress and JP's tie matched the colour of her dress, like what proper couples do that are at prom together.  Even then it still hurt which I never understood, it was like JP had the key to my heart.

 I decided that night after seeing the pictures of him moving on and getting on with things to deactivate all social media accounts and the next day I went to the phone shop and upgraded my well overdue phone handset and changed my number completely.  All contact with JP now removed we couldn't reach each other even if we wanted to.

I had got the grades I needed and I was starting a travel and tourism course and was looking forward to starting my apprenticeship.