*Contains content of the aftermath of an abortion"
Lena's POV
I run to Zane who instantly holds out his arms and hugs me tightly.
"Lena breath darling come on in and out" he says.
I get my breathing under control and we head indoors.
"Go have a soak Le, and I'll fix you some food" Zane says caringly
"I don't think I can face food Zane" I say sadly.
"Come on Bath first" he says.
I spend the rest of Sunday with Zane and stay over. It is now half term and it dawns on me I was meant to be going away with JP to Alton Towers I was an absolute mess I knew I loved him, even though we had not slept together I knew that I genuinely love him. He still didn't answer any of my calls or texts and he was purposely not going on WhatsApp, he hadn't opened any of those messages I decided to write to him:
Dear JP,
I'm sorry to do this, but I really need to explain things to you please read this letter and hear me out.
I am absolutely devastated about what has happened I was stupid and naïve and I never should of meet Keely. I had no idea that Donovan was in the car until I reached it and even then it was to late I had to see it out. I had no idea that he would spike me and be that evil but I should have known better.
In February I had fallen pregnant with his child he never supported me just tossed me to the side telling me to "get rid of it or he would kick the baby out of me". My Auntie Tanya took me to a private clinic and I had an abortion. This has emotionally destroyed me as I don't believe in abortion but I knew then that I was in a toxic relationship and he would ruin the rest of my life.....looks like he still is.
After the abortion I then found out that he already had a baby mother he had two children with her and played the doting father roll she never knew and never will know about us. He never loved me it was all about power, sex and manipulation to him.
After the abortion my family picked me up moved me from my mothers and took me in. My mother didn't give a shit she was quiet happy for me to have the baby her words were "The apple don't fall far from the tree". My uncle sent me to Spain for the Summer to get out the area and get my head together he enrolled me in Marlsborough and then I met you.
Just so you know and I think this is real important Dan and Zane took me to private clinic and the doctor confirmed that no sexual intercourse took place that night Donovan marked me up to get to you. I had told him that I wasn't interested in him and that I had meet someone that I was proper into I told him about you JP looks like Donovan has won again.
You have no idea what you mean to me JP everything I feel about you is genuine and I know I fucked this up between us I don't deserve to be happy after everything I have done, this is killing me. I am so sorry for any hurt I caused you please forgive me JP.
All my love
Lena x x
Half term has now finished and it's back to school and I know I am going to see him, he hasn't been in contact with me and I posted the letter by hand so he has got to have got it and read it. I am shitting it going to school and seeing him. He hasn't been Gym or the Café, he has completely ghosted me.
I am waiting for Zane to pick me up I have a quick fag, I only smoke with I get anxious but I have been smoking more and more lately.
Zane has been my rock he has really supported me but he also sees it from JP's side. I was meant to break all connections with my old friends and it was because of trusting Keely that I was now in this mess and lost JP.
Zane drops me off at the normal corner I meet JP at but his cars not there so I head into school on my own. I go the 6th Form common room but he is not there either my heart sinks.
I get to lessons and sit with Millie at lunch and that's when I see him walking up to the server with Deacon and a few of the others my heart flips at the sight of him. He sees me and looks away and heads to another table and sits with his back to me. I could cry and this is how things go for the next three weeks no interaction he avoids me at all costs, he has not smiled, acknowledge or broke breath to me, like I'm some leiper. He has also cancelled his gym membership and has not once stepped foot in the café.
My Aunt and Uncle had been asking about him they knew something wasn't right but I couldn't tell them the truth....that once again I had been stupid and naïve that this had cost me lose JP. I just said that we was better off as friends.
I can't get over him I have lost about half a stone which is not good for me I look gaunt and ill.
We are having a family meal at Lorenzo's bar and grill tonight and I don't feel like it as I enter the estate I see Grace with a girl about the same age maybe a year younger?
"Hey Lena" Grace smiles but it is more of a sympathy smile.
"Hi Grace" I say as I carry on walking.
When I hear that other girl say
"Is that her?".
Great so people are talking about me?
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Genç Kurgu*****COMPLETED****** Lena was streetwise. She was feisty and tough, she had to be with the upbringing she had. The one thing Lena wanted was to be loved and Donovan was the man who done that. Despite their age difference and Lena's naivety she n...
