i didn't think i'd have to update this within the first month of the new year..
but here i am, heh..
um... for the past few days, i've felt kinda... lost
and empty
and idk why
i thought that.. maybe when the new year started, i'd have a better start and that.. maybe it would last longer than a few months..
but it's only january and i'm already updating this book
idk what i want anymore
idk what to do anymore
kinda wanna cry, tbh
but.. i did enough of that last year
and i don't wanna cry anymore...
i don't wanna feel this way anymore...
i just wanna... disappear for a while...
