i wanna talk about the previous chapter for a bit. the way i acted in that chapter was not me. i don't ever really pop off like that. and while it felt amazing in that moment, i realized that i could've handled it a lot better. i didn't regret the things i said. but i woke up yesterday and felt bad because i could've gotten my point across without being that way. i feel like in that moment, i stooped down to a level i never wanna stoop down to again. i'm not one to say things like that, either. in situations like that, i tend to remain calm. i don't ever get as disrespectful as i did in that chapter. so to her, i'm sorry. i let my emotions get the best of me and that's what resulted in that chapter being made. i should've been more civil about it. and maybe i could've just texted you about it instead of lashing out on here about you. idk if you'll ever see this, but i want you to know that i am genuinely sorry for acting the way i did.
some of you may think that i don't need to be sorry and i had a right to be upset. and yeah, maybe i did have a right to be upset. but i didn't have to say what i did. so in my mind, i feel as if i should apologize to her. and i can't text it to her because she blocked my number. but if any of you wanna like.. take a screenshot of the top paragraph and send it to her instagram or something, i would appreciate it. i'm not saying any of you have to. but i just want her to know that i am sorry. idk if she's still on wattpad or not so if any of you have her @ and wanna tag her in the comments, you can. but there's a chance she might not see it. it depends.
anyways, that's all i had to say. um.. after my emotional breakdown from last night, i got a headache and even after going to sleep, it's still there so.. if i'm not really online throughout the day, that's why. love you guys. bye <3
