so.. lately, i've been thinking a lot about college and everything
and it's just... i was excited to go to college
there was one specific college i really wanted to go to
and... honestly... i don't know if i wanna go anymore..
like... i want to but i also don't want to..
and it's really weird and hard to explain..
i wanted to go to major in psychology because i wanted to be a psychologist when i got older..
and i still do...
well... just be someone who helps people..
that's really what my dream job is..
someone who helps people through their tough times
but... college just doesn't appeal to me anymore..
i think that maybe i just lost interest because i've lacked motivation for a little bit..
and i'm too scared to tell anyone that..
my mom used to ask me about it a lot but she stopped..
and today, my dad asked me, but my mom told him that she stopped asking me because she didn't want me to feel pressured to go..
which i love my mom for..
but like.. i don't know how to tell everyone else that i'm not sure about college anymore.. especially one of my friends..
he goes to the college i wanted to go to... and i'm afraid to tell him about me not really knowing if i wanna go anymore..
same with the teachers that are a part of this program i'm in..
their purpose is to help people who may need help with certain subjects, but it's also supposed to help you prepare for college and everything..
just.. i'm afraid of telling everyone who i told i wanted to go to college and the people who helped me prepare for college.. that i'm not sure if i wanna go anymore..
