i made this chapter without really thinking about what i would type
i'm just..
i don't even know anymore
i just..
i wanna be able to just not feel anything
or just feel at peace or something
i spend so much time on my phone and it doesn't really help much
i try spending time with my family instead, but they don't do much, either
so i end up going back in my room not knowing what to do
i just..
i don't wanna feel
that's why i sleep
when i'm sleep, i don't feel anything
i want other ways to deal with this, but i don't know what i should do
i wanna cry but i can't
i wanna be happy, but i'm not
i don't know what to do anymore :(
