haven't updated this book since september 29th
so not exactly two months, but it's been a little while
anyways...
as i'm sure a lot of you have seen from my mb sometimes, i'm not necessarily okay right now
i'm just... not.. happy
sure, my mood can be lifted, but it doesn't always last
it's not an all day, every single day kind of thing
it's like it's temporary
i don't feel like myself anymore
and i hate that
i want that old, happy me back, ya know?
i probably can't get the old me, but... that happy me?
i miss it
a lot
but it's like... it's gone
will i get it back? maybe
hopefully
but it's gone right now
and it sucks quite a lot
i was really silly and whatnot with my dad because i was super tired due to me not going to sleep until 3 am knowing i had to wake up at 8:30 in the morning
so i got about 5 hours of sleep
but now i'm just like... ehhh
