i need an outlet and figured this was the best place to do it..
i.. i don't know what to do anymore..
i just.. i've grown so attached to him..
maybe too attached..
and i feel selfish about it..
i always wanna talk to him..
i always want his attention..
but i also want him to be able to talk to his friends without worrying about me..
ughhh it's so frustrating
it makes me wanna just scream and cry until i can't anymore..
and he's so patient with me about this, but it feels like he deserves better sometimes...
someone without these... these issues...
someone who knows how to be attached without getting carried away with it...
just..
i dunno anymore..
