being single makes me feel lonely
it's nice to forget about that, but..
that feeling is always there
even when i don't feel it all day
i know it's there
i complain so much about being single
but then someone might tell me they like me and i reject them
like... it's usually because i don't really like them like that
but then it's like i shouldn't even complain when people tell me that they like me and all i do is reject them and tell them i don't feel the same way
i don't wanna be single anymore, but im also scared of being in a new relationship
because i don't wanna be all happy in the relationship and then something happen and we break up or anything because then im gonna be right back to square one
im scared of even potentially talking to someone to see how that goes
i had a guy ask me if we could talk and see where things would go, but i said no
i didn't wanna say yeah and get his hopes up
but i also didn't see myself being in a relationship with him so that played a part in why i said no
...i think i'm just too picky with people
i need to be less picky, but i can't help that i am
sigh ;-;
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