no fancy font for this one because i don't feel like using it
but i just wanna be honest with you guys..
i feel so mentally drained from this year
like...
i went through so much shit
losing my best friend kind of just... drew the line for me
i've never realized how sad i really am until that day happened
i'm not as happy as i used to be
i miss that happy me a lot
but it's gone
and idk if it's ever gonna come back
to the person who will see this and then probably message me
please don't worry about me, okay?
i'm just...
i'm fine
ik you're gonna tell me i'm not
and you're right, i'm not fine
but i will be
i just need time
and help..
which i still haven't really gotten yet...
i'm waiting to get a counselor
but um...
yeah...
i'm just.. not happy anymore..
and idk what else to do
like
even my mood has changed
i get so irritated by small things
earlier today, i was cleaning up my grandmothers room
and i had this attitude because i didn't feel like doing it
but i did it
and i feel like that attitude kept coming out
and i feel bad about it
sigh...
i just don't know what to do..
i kinda just wanna disappear for a while..
just until i'm okay again..
sigh...
life is so freaking hard...
