i don't like being awake late at night
throughout the day, i'll have moments where i feel kinda lonely
but that feeling kind of intensifies at night
i can't help being awake late at night
it'll be like 1 or 2 am and i'm just not all that tired
so i'm left laying awake at night drowning in my emotions until i eventually get sleepy and go to sleep
and it's like... i feel like sometimes.. i can't really go to anyone about it because it's late and i don't wanna bother anybody
and i know that i have people i can always go to, but..
i dunno...
i think i post how i feel on my message board in hopes that someone will notice and ask me what's wrong..
in hopes that someone checks on me to see if i'm okay..
and i feel like that makes me seem like i'm just looking for attention..
and maybe that's what it is... i don't really know...
i guess i just want someone to notice something is wrong and talk to me..
because barely anyone talks to me, which makes me feel even lonelier...
sigh..
i'm gonna go eat something and... try to keep my mind off things, i guess...
