Living Closeted

Prince Charming and his Queen

The school gave us a free day today. No classes, no homework. After all, it's only once in a year that the freshmen get to shine and be introduced in the new society. Of course, the society I'm talking about is the hungry teenagers at Sky High, starving for gossip, drama and scandal. If you're not careful you'll be eaten alive. That's it if you're not that boring that you just don't even get noticed. So tiny that not even the bullies see you worthy for bullying. At the same time, it's the society that craves the most love and affection, driven by sex and desire. It's ever so complex as the confusing and forever changing minds of teenagers. I hope you dress and present exceptional today, freshmen, 'cause I'm coming for you big time!

Now before we dive headfirst into tonight's events, I must tell you a little about what happened this week. Believe it or not I Nathan back with me for the rest of the year as Adrian resumed his seat with Emma, in front of me. I was left to this day without a reason. Did I do something? Did Nathan do something? Did Emma kick Nathan out of her desk? What the hell happened? And then Aya and Ethan are dating finally in front of everyone. I thought they'd never come clean about it. And Anya and Ethan are also dating and then there's this other couple too. I mean what the hell! And Caleb's taken or dating too! Like I don't know whom yet or if he's just hitting on a girl but somethings going on. It's like we're at peak horniness and everybody is just looking for somebody to release all that sexual tension. And me? I feel them. I want what they have! But I can't have it can I? I'm a closeted gay man who's supposed to what? Go fishing for some other gay man in this toxic and homophobic society? We're all hiding. We're all trying our best to fit in and not be outed. So that means we also hide away from each other. It's too risky. You can't let another gay person know you're gay too without telling everybody. 

So on that note, you now have the right context to understand what kind of hungry people are in this society. And what kind of people will be at tonight's homecoming.

Oh! I almost forgot to tell you! I went shopping this week. But you already know that it's me who told you after all. I bet you were screaming to know what I bought. Well... I told you I want something sort of grunge but classy. Elegant but, I don't want to say emo style. I want to mean more like that punk, rock vibe. The kind of look that goes well with some around the eye liner and ripped jeans. Only that I toned it down and made it classy. So I got myself this awesome white ripped shirt there and there, but I'm covering it with this blazer with tiny spikes on the collar and down the place where a zipper would be on a jacket. Now that doesn't mean the holes in the shirt are completely hidden. No! But you can only see the front ones. I'm gonna wear the blazer unbuttoned. No wristwatch. I also got this big ring to put on my left hand. Instead of shoes, I got some boots with spikes. Not the excessively tall ones though. Some more neat and classy ones. I'm also doing my hear just a little wild and messy, not overly messy. Just a little. I would love to ditch my glasses but I am way too blind to see anything without them. And the jeans are the usual ripped black jeans that fit perfect on the skin from the hips to ankles. My booty is tightly on display. All I needed to complete the look was a belt. I went with the too-long spiked belt with a lot of silvery detailing to it. When I say long, I mean that after you put it on you get this long bit left that usually you'll continue around your waist, but instead, you sort of let it dangle. Did I need anything else? Well, what if I wanted to take off the blazer? Would I just let the teachers kick me out for indecency? I've also bought this red and black striped tie that I'm thinking to wear very loose around my neck. But I haven't really decided. I think it would just look too scholarly with it. And I want to do nothing with the school in my look. Oh, right, what if I want the blazer off... I mean it's a very thin blazer, I'll roll up the sleeves anyway. So will I be that hot in it? I guess I don't know what I'd do in that situation. I'll just hope the teachers don't kick me out. 

Now, mind you this wasn't completely inexpensive, but at least I'll wear the look other times too. If I'd gone full suit, classy as per the request I wouldn't have worn it again. I just don't like dressing up that casual and formal.