Living Closeted

Field Trip II

Just as Emma said right? Go get him. It was so weird to think about him in this way. Four months ago I could swear we'd end up in a fight or at least jump off a bridge due to his attitude. But now? I could only see this sweet and ill-equipped for socialising. Pretty much like I was. But while I buried my feelings and turned all robotic he was the opposite. He didn't know what to do when no one was giving him attention, he hated the feeling of being alone with no one to talk to. Deep down he'd want to have somebody to have profound conversations with. He still doesn't. This is all so new to both of us that we didn't have time to process what was happening. I watch him from behind as he walked. As we entered together our room I felt a strong grip that pushed me into the nearest wall which made me let out a groan. 
My eyes then fell on his smirking face. He had that look that could kill anyone. I wanted to escape but it was futile. His hold was too strong so I gave in. 
'Did you really believe you could tease me all-day and get away with it? I gotta give it to you though. For a nerd you got moves.' 
I spaced out immediately after he said the first sentence. I was in deep shit. My ass was about to get pummeled... with hunger, it seems. Some part of me was so excited at the thought of this. But the other was shaking with fear. I guess he saw it too. Because my eyes were welling do your best while my body was shaking a little. 
He leaned in all of a sudden for a violent and passionate kiss. I was so surprised by his move that I bit his bottom lip in defence. Oh no... I just made my punishment worse. His lip was already swelling. His face turned red with anger and he rushed back at me. This time he locked my hands above my head and went for my neck. He followed my jawline living kisses that tingled my skin. With his free hand, he started touching my body. I arched my back when he touched my abdomen. Which he noticed of course. That was when he jolted me off the ground supporting me from my ass as I put my feet around him.
He was walking us towards the bed while kissing me intensely. He threw me off of him which made me land with a big thud. I let out another groan. He then climbed on top of me. Going for my neck. Liking the area near my Adam's apple until he found it. I was biting on my lips so hard because I didn't want to give him satisfaction by moaning. I wanted to moan so hard. He then went down with a trail of hot kisses and found my collar bones. He licked that line and kissed it. He wasn't going to live a single spot untouched it made me feel like I was in heaven. My hands went for his back in which I plunged my fingers leaving for sure some nasty scratch marks as he gave me a hickey just below the right ear. I also slipped out a moan which made him even more hungry for me. I fed off every second of the foreplay until I couldn't take it anymore. I wanted him inside me. I wanted to feel his skin on mine. I longed for the warmth of his body on mine. 
I gathered all of my strength to roll us over and get on top but I couldn't even budge him. But I could feel a devilish smile forming on his face. He read my intentions which made him go agonizingly slow all of a sudden. He did relieve me of my hoodie to have access to my chest. 
He looked at my body and then back in my eyes and kissed me. This time it was tender and sweet. Slower and gentler. I responded with pleasure not even fighting for dominance. I surrendered to him. I let him explore my mouth again as our tongues danced together. He then left a trail of kisses down to my chest. As he was approaching my nipples my heart went faster and faster with expectation and fear at the same time. I let out a moan the second he sucked on my right nipple. He then did circles around it and went to caress the other as equally. 
He unbuttoned my jeans and took 'em off. He ripped my underwear off of me which made me shout at him. But he covered my discontent with his lips. I bit his lip again.
'It was my favourite pair of briefs!' I tried to say with at least a tiny bit of irritation in between kisses.
'I'll buy you a new one'
He now took off all of his clothes and we were finally naked. I was moaning as low as I could as he left another hickey. This time on my ribs. I could now feel my dick grinding against his body as was his on mine. 
'Go faster' I said. And he went slower. He reached for my dick and played with its tip. I bit my lip to hide another moan as he's touch was filling me with contempt. He then went on to jerk me off and went as fast as he could until I got tensed because I was about to cum. It was the hint for him to stop doing it and slow it down a peg. It was a real torture. He then played again with my tip but this time with his tongue. It was even better. I was climaxing so hard. Even though I wasn't cuming I was pretty close to orgasming. He finally figured it was time he went full-on sucking on me. He was so skilled at this. I moaned when he deep-throated me. He was now making a few pleasure noises as well. Probably to keep me aroused and damn it felt hot. I grabbed his hair and push him deeper choking him with my dick. He gasped for air and I let him catch his breath. He swiftly flipped me on my belly and gave me a spank on my ass. I moaned in slight pain but pleasure as well. I hoped he'd start rimming me faster or to feel his tip going inside me. 
When he put his tongue on my hole and started licking I grabbed the sheets of my bed as hard as I could and bit my lip but didn't manage to hold back the moan. He must be smirking with satisfaction. 
'Ok I tormented you enough' 
And with that, I could feel his bare dick inside of me. I was going with it even though I knew it wasn't safe. At that moment all I wanted was him and only him. We were doing it doggy style. He leaned on my back while he was pushing back and forth and pulled my head backwards kissing my neck and sucking on my ear lobe. He then as he kept the tight grip on my hair he went faster and faster inside me. I knew he was about to cum inside of me and I kicked him in one of his legs and muttered 'condom or no ass'. He obliged and came back at it. He quickly finished with a moan. 
I was now again on my back with him on top of me looking at each other. Smiling with pleasure. We kissed sweetly and then he did something a top rarely does.
'I want you inside me'
And with that and a cocky smile on my face, I flipped us getting on top of him. I plunged in his neck kissing and licking as slow as I could. I decided to live him a stamp as well. I won a little moan from him with that. He was hard again and I think he was ready to cum again but I was going to go as slow as he went. I then move to his ear lobe. I sucked on it as best as I knew and I must've done something because I could feel him tense up. He was holding up another moan I wanted. I sucked even harder and I finally got what I deserved. I then slid my tongue inside his mouth, invading for the first time this uncharted land of Adrian Underwood. I went as deep as I could and left no stone unturned. Our tongues were dancing and sparks were flying. My hands were all over his body. With one I squeezed his hard nipple which made him moan so loud I had to do my best to cover it with another kiss. I then proceeded to please my king down the path to his penis. I caressed his nipples again which prompted him to push my head faster to his dick. I obliged and blew him. I tried my first deep throat and my second until I got the hang of it. He was moaning with pleasure. He choked me and I lost my breath. I tried to push back but he only let me breathe in the very last second. I then put a condom on his dick and got on top of it. I then moved up and down leaning for a kiss here and there until he cummed again. I then shifted to the side position to finally unite with his body. I skipped hole foreplay and went in hard which made him clench his fist on the sheets and grunt. I let out a 'Fuck you're tight' and a moan of pleasure moving my hand on his cheeks squeezing them. I kissed his neck again. Licking my hickey softly and gently as an apology. He moaned a little as I touched it with my lips. I then shited to doggy style to finish. I was thrusting faster and faster until my sperm flood out my shaft into the condom inside him. We were now one more time one and the same. I kissed his neck and took it out. We then laid side by side in bed trying to catch our breaths. We looked at each other and kissed one more time. I then grabbed his wrist and went for a shower where we made out again. We slept naked again. 

I woke up in the middle of the night with a scream which woke up Adrian very concerned.
'Shh... It was just a bad dream. Calm down.' he said as he hugged me and pet the back of my head gently. Tears left my eyes onto his chest in which I had buried my head in. I didn't want to tell him that I dreamed about him breaking up on me on the train back via text while he was at the bathroom. I didn't want to tell him that he already meant so much to me than I could ever hope for.

Why was I so certain of this outcome? He still is who he is and that person awaits him back in the city. As soon as he steps out of that train he has to turn back in that ugly person I hate. Just I have to turn back into the anxious nerd who has this secret that would end his life if people found out about it. 
He hugged me down to sleep again while constantly petting the back of my head. And yet, I didn't feel safer than ever in his arms. And it all was going to change when I wake up.