{My Mental Health}

Interview.

"Which one of you have lost a friend?"

I was hesitating, but I raised my hand.

"You! Yes, please stand up. How did you lose your friend?"

"I lost her to suicide."

Everyone in the room was shocked.

"I'm sorry to hear that. What was her name?"

"She hated her name so I just called her Kim, but her real name was ******."

"How close were you two?"

"We were very close, yet it was only a one sided love"

"Love?"

"I was in love with her. So in love with her."

"Have you told her? When she was alive?"

"No, I haven't. Because I was afraid. We were girls, and I wasn't sure about my Sexuality then. I texted her in her old account since she has blocked me in all accounts, I confessed to her because maybe I thought that it was just her not wanting to talk to me and I hoped that maybe if I confessed then she would come back. But she didn't. "

"Oh so it was all online? Haven't seen each other?"

"We have when I was grade 3, but then she moved to Japan, it was not until grade 5 till we started talking again. We weren't even friends nor were we close when we were grade 3, it all started when I was grade 5 we were texting each other till we got close."

"Did you know that she has been feeling depressed lately?"

"Not lately, she was already depressed 2 years ago. She would rant to me about her family and about her anxiety attacks, and I would comfort her through text."

"How did you know that she died?"

"She often would talk about taking her own life, I was the only person she could rant to. Though I'm not really sure if she really died, its still a mystery to me. Maybe she doesn't want to talk to me anymore and just got sick of me."

"What was she like?"

"She was just amazing. She had this specific energy in her that I couldn't even explain. She was crazy! we would even talk about going to someplace in the world and she would just say "What if we did it now?" and I... was very willing to go with her plans. But of course we would go into realization that it was a stupid idea. She was just beautiful. She doesn't have any belief in herself and she would always rant to me about her mother. She was also a very comforting person, I am also a very mentally ill person. And she knew that, so everyday she would ask me "how are you?" and I would simply reply "I'm okay" I would reply that even If I wasn't actually okay because... I was okay in a sense that I was at that very moment. I am a very conservative person but I had this urge to tell her that I was okay, as long as she was there I'm okay."

"Wow... she must be very special to you. But how did you know that it was love?"

"Well, she wasn't hard to love. Sure it was hard to keep up with her but it wasn't hard to love her even more. I knew it was love because, I- I wanted to see her grow. I wanted to see her rise from the dark she was in. I knew it was love because I would often think what I would be without her. I was scared to lose her. I knew it was love because I've never felt that kind of way for someone, it may sound cheesy but it wasn't that feeling that she was the one but tge feeling of wanting to be the one."

"..."

"But... she took her own life and I wasn't even there."

"Is there anything you want to say to her?"

"Well, uhm Kim, im sorry. Im sorry for I wasn't the one to make you feel whole. I didn't get to tell you how much you meant to me. But you are in paradise now, just like how you said it would be."

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HIIIIIIII!! THESE ARE JUST SOME OF THE FAKE SCENARIOS I COME UP WITH AHHAAHAHAHAHA IT HAPPENS PRETTY OFTEN.