SO IN THIS STORY I FINALLY ADMITED THAT I WAS SO FUCKING DEPRESSED🤠 AND THIS IS ALSO THE START OF ME GOING TO A PSYCHIATRIST. YALL MUST BE THINKING WHY I HAVEN'T UPDATED IN A LONG TIME ITS BECAUSE I WANTED TO MATCH THE DATE WHEN I FIRST WENT TO A PSYCHIATRIST🤠😉✊ OK OK LET START (🚫THIS IS A SHORT CHAPTER🚫)
June 22, 2019
I just went out of the bathroom with a new cut in my wrist (I can't remember why🙃) It was just a white one, no blood was coming out. So when I went to my bed, a really dumb part of me looked at my wrist and squeezed it so blood would come out. AND THE DUMBEST PART IS I was with my parents in the room🤠 SO MY GRANDMA SAW THIS AND SCREAMED. My mom came to us and asked what the commotion was all about she noticed this and started to cry. My grandma shouted and shouted at me full of anger not a single bone was calm. My mother started to sob and told me
"Anong pagkakamali ko sayo!"
Meaning
"What wrong have I done to you!"
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Well only two..
The way you act like your not talking about my bad habits but you are, do you know how guilty that makes me feel?
The way you choose work over me, do you know how much have I asked myself, why work and not me?
It may be only two but you do that so often that I ask myself often "am I the cause of it all?" the way you say your so tired at work, and I know you work just because of me. Every word you say makes me feel so worth less.
Oh but of course I didn't say it out loud.
I guess I am deppresed and your one of the reasons why I am.
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{My Mental Health}
Ficción GeneralJust updates on my mental disorders/habits/health. I know you won't read this, you must be thinking that I'm an attention seeker. Just think that this is just my way of releasing what I feel inside. And I just decided on sharing it with You. (Trigg...
