Just updates on my mental disorders/habits/health. I know you won't read this, you must be thinking that I'm an attention seeker. Just think that this is just my way of releasing what I feel inside. And I just decided on sharing it with You.
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Now as you see in my tags I have about 3 disorders (the "depression" doesn't count since its already part of my bipolar disorder) Now my psych has already diagnosed me since it was needed for school purposes. I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder with mixed features. Last week, when I visited my psychiatrist, she warned me. Since I couldn't stop the cutting, she might change/add idk the disorder. That disorder is Personality disorder now according to my understanding, personality disorder is when you have an unhealthy pattern of thinking, behaving, and functioning. Now there are 3 types (?) of personality disorder which is cluster A, cluster B, and cluster C. Each of those clusters has their own list of disorders. Now I went to see their symptoms and I really matched with this one disorder. Which is Borderline Personality Disorder.
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-I do binge eat a lot -I do have a low self esteem -I just broke up with my boyfriend since we were on&off I have bipolar disorder which is like Having upp and down moods. -Well if you read my story then you know that I had like 2-3 suicide attempts so yes I'm very suicidal, and I do self harm. -It is one of my fears to be left alone/be abandoned. -Literally what I feel all day is emptiness. -Since I do have bipolar disorder, I often show anger to my parents. -And for the last one idk what it means but I guess it's like being paranoid when you receive too much stress?? Idk but yeah I have that.
But I still can't like tell myself I have it, I'll just wait till my doctor talks to me about it. I can't even talk to her about my problems, she would ask first HAHAHHAH
