I did it again. I cut myself again. I mean I still do. I never stopped but Its becoming more frequent now, Just like before. My cuts don't seem to mark last year, its like as if my skin was too thick already but now I have found a new tool! A thingy thats like a pimple popper. It has like this small circle to like push down the pimple, the other end has a sharp needle to pop it. And we already know which end I used.
I don't know why it became more frequent. Probably cause I feel a bit more depressed than usual... okay maybe a lot. I just tend to get more triggered easily this month, and panic attacks happen at least once a day. And the fact that I only keep these emotions to myself is not a big help. I don't even open up to my psychiatrist! And its been like 4 fucking years.
AND!!! My psych told me that I don't have panic attacks but anger breakdowns/burstouts... LIKE?!?! ISHSJSN she even told me the difference. Anger break downs are caused by, well, anger. Panic attacks are caused by intense FEAR. I mean like yes I cry when im angry but I know the difference and yes, I still have panic attacks. BUT OF COURSE I kept my mouth shut.
Back to self harm, I can't stop now, its too addictive. Im back to my old habits. And its getting worse day by day.
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{My Mental Health}
General FictionJust updates on my mental disorders/habits/health. I know you won't read this, you must be thinking that I'm an attention seeker. Just think that this is just my way of releasing what I feel inside. And I just decided on sharing it with You. (Trigg...
