June 04, 2019
There are days where I say I'm used to it, but there are days where I say I am used to it but it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.
Today I feel... Nothing. You must think that's worse but no I'm actually used to this. But then my grandma just had to ruin that. She found the blade and well she got mad and all. Asking me why I did it again and again, honestly I didn't know the answer. She got mad because of this, can't she understand that I don't know? I can't even explain it to myself. Well guess what guys after that I did it again and again and again. To be honest I don't know why I do it. My psychiatrist said its a way of expressing how I feel but I feel like it's deeper than that. Well that's just an update of today. Lemme tell you the start of cutting.
It started when I was grade three I could feel myself slowly shattering. I became more and more cautious of what I look like. I look at the mirror and suddenly at the first day of school, and noticed the flaw that I had. My fat. I hated it. I ignored the feeling at first so I just went on with life thinking about my fat. Moving on, I spotted a video on YouTube it was about a teenager who was depressed and cuts her wrist because of it. The video affected me. I'm not saying it's the video's fault tho! But I think it kinda is???? HAVSKJJJ but I'm not putting blame on who did that video. So I got interested in it and decided to watch more related videos.
SOOO the "It Has Started" #1 and #2 is about me getting bullied this chapter is about me getting attached to cutting. OKIE THAT'S ALL HOPE YOU LIKED IT (?) 🤠
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