June 9, 2019
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Yesterday my bipolar disorder came out. We were at the mall then suddenly it kicked in. My parents were mad as hell. *Sigh* OK ok let's get on with the story.
Grade 5, my first cut. During grade 4 summer I got very depressed I don't know why. I just started thinking negatively. I had a lot of friends who were depressed as well and my job was to make them happy. I encouraged them made them happy, give them life advises, all the things that I could do just for them not to end up suicidal. Because to be honest, I don't know what I would do if I found out they were dead. So when I was grade 5 I always thought about cutting so I always brought a compass with me. Why a compass? Because it was the most appropriate thing to bring to school. I remembered that day very clearly. I was with my friends then they suddenly started talking about me making jokes about me, telling me that I should go on a diet. I was on the verge of crying but I just laughed it off, agreed with them, even made jokes about my self. Everything was a blur in that moment, but I just faked a laugh... again. I suddenly wanted to die at that moment all out of embarrassment and low-self esteem. I went home ignored my family and went to my room and cried my eyes out. I ran to my bag and looked at the compass. I grabbed it went to the bathroom and cried even more. I looked at the compass yet again. Then quickly ran the sharp point of the compass to my skin. Other people that do self harm don't usually do it quickly but I was too afraid. So I just did it quickly. There I saw my scraped skin only the littlest blood coming out. I felt nothing no emotion, but I wanted to do it more. I continued making at least 4 cuts.
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