Don't Cry, Sumairu

Epilogue

This is the best feeling that I've ever felt since three years ago. I was having fun with the guys. I didn't care about the coldness of the sea, I touched it and exhaled its smell as I listen to them telling stories about Grant. This vacation made me realize that there's a life I could have outside of my world. And this won't happen if it's not because of Grant.

"Alam mo ba 'yang si Grant, taong-library 'yan. Hindi sumasama sa 'min sa pagko-computer dahil mas focus siya sa pag-aaral," Jeth shared.

Ced agreed, "Pero no'ng dumating ka...naku, lagi nang sa 'yo nakatingin. Kaya nga Misis ang tawag namin sa 'yo kasi naaasar siya. 'Di naman 'yon asar-talo dati. Feeling lang namin, ha...may gusto na 'yon sa 'yo."

I feel like my cheeks burned. Does he like me? Should I ask him?

I looked at Grant. He rejected Ced's offer kanina to let me swim with these guys. Maybe because he's jealous? Oh, my...is he?

"Kaso...study first before girls si Grant. Baka kahit magkagusto 'yan sa 'yo, mas unahin niya ang pag-aaral at pangarap niya. Ewan ko lang."

That's right. If he likes me, he won't go after me because he has plans and goals of his own. Unlike me, after Smilla died, I felt like I died with her. Like my life was hers too. After she died, I felt lonely and alone. I can't move on and even what road to take in my life...I've no idea.

Grant made me face those truths. He made me think about my life. Ever since he came, it's a newfound life for me. He's a stranger, but he made me feel that I can be something and more.

I can't bring myself to understand these feelings I have for him. He's a breath of fresh air. I was isolated for so long and the only one I'm with was my family. When he came, he's like mine. He's helping me out, he's taking care of me, and he's willing to be with me.

"Misis ni Grant," Jeth called.

They were happy playing together also with their girlfriends. It must be nice to experience this vacation with someone special. When will I have that someone?

"Kung magkagusto sa 'yo si Grant, bibigyan mo ba siya ng chance?"

I put my index finger on my lip. "Shhh...." I shyly smiled at him. "I think he has a chance."

The guys cheered, but I stopped them. I laughed with them, I'm right...I like him.

"Don't you ever tell him this, ha? It's our secret. Although, I'm not sure if he likes me too. I'll wait for sure. It's too early."

We had fun. I asked things about Grant so I could get to know him more indirectly. Even though I like him, I should show him that he should focus on his studies muna. I can wait. I can be friends with him for now.

When I was tired of playing with Grant's friends, I rest beside Grant who was taking a nap. I smiled looking at his face, what a handsome man. Really handsome that my classmates are all interested in him. Irritating...

I took my phone and playfully took a picture of Grant while he's asleep. I don't have the gut to ask him for a picture. That's totally not me. I made it as my wallpaper, I should be careful not to let him see this. I spent the time staring at Grant. I'll take this as a blessing. I held a sigh.

Maybe in the future, you'll like me, and I'll be hard to get because I've feelings for you too. And when the time that you fall in love with me, I'll be harder to get because I've loved you too more.

THE END