The Moon On Watch (On Going)

Her Approval

CHAPTER 37 

ENZO'S POV

I knew her dorm wasn't that far from the café but the time I picked her up and drove off to her dorm it felt like we were going somewhere far away.

After a few seconds of not answering my question, I took a glance at her beside me. Her head was turned away from my direction as she was looking out of the window and her hands clasped together on her lap.

I cleared my throat to get her attention but it didn't work at first. I did it again and out of the corner of my eye, I noticed her looked at me.

"Why?" I started once again. I heard a deep sigh. My eyes were looking straight ahead on the road and suddenly, she said.

"Gusto ko sabihin sa'yo pero sabi ni Kevin sila na raw bahala and all. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to make you look like a fool."

Her soft and apologetic voice rang in my ears as if it was like a lullaby that made me wanted to sleep at this early hour. I sighed deeply and thought for a few seconds.

I blame Eusaff and Kevin for making me come and pick her up. After my confession, they started asking me questions as if I was a suspect in a crime scene and all I did was sat there, silently.

"Why do you like Cynthia?"

"Kailan mo siya nagustuhan?"

"May balak ka bang ligawan yung tao?"

"Naka-move on kana?"

"Wow, akala ko 'di kana magkakagusto."

Those were some of my friends' questions to me and they even said,

"Hindi sapat yung gusto mo lang yung tao. Ipakita mo, i-prove mo sa kanya na gusto mo talaga siya."

And at some point that night, I couldn't stop blaming myself either. Why the hell did I confess?!

I should've just lied to them regardless of how accurate their advice to me. However, I didn't want to lie to myself every single day every time I see her, near her, and touch her.

"Stop being in denial, bro." "We know it's hard, Enzo but just let it go, ngayon lang. Just say it." Kevin and Eusaff said.

Those words kept running through my mind and I couldn't help but feel relieved after my confession and at the same time pissed off with myself.

I thought my feelings for her would deepen after the confession but it was just the same and I still feel normal like I was.

What I do afraid of was she would stay away from me if ever I confessed my feeling for her. So, as much as possible, I needed to play it cool.

Once my car was parked in front of the dormitory where she stayed, I turned my head in her direction and said,

"Okay lang. My friends and I talked about it and okay na. Gusto ko lang na makausap ka tungkol don. Sana 'di na maulit."

Hindi na talaga mauulit kasi umamin kana, 'di ba?

Despite the smile spread across her face, I could see how sorry she was. So, I smiled back at her to assure her everything was fine.

"Seryoso, okay na. I just wanted to talk." I exclaimed, chuckling. She nodded at me while smiling.

"Thank you. Seryoso."

I watched her opened the passenger door and ready to step out. As soon as she was about to close the door, I wanted to tell her something but we spoke at the same time instead.