Not One Sided

1.Their Wounds were alike

Elçin's POV

"Elçin hatun is guilty too. She must return to Anatolia. It's not a punishment, but a duty."

These words of order felt as though a dagger had been pierced through my heart. Following this, he returned me the ring too. Yes, the same ring which was the beginning of my journey in this palace. As though there were plenty of emotions trapped in that 'ring'.

I accepted his order with a smile. Deep inside, I was broken. My heart felt trapped inside. Was it my fault? Why did I fall in love with a man whose heart belonged to someone else? I kept developing my wings of love to fly, unaware of them to be cut off one day.

Somewhat, we both were in an alike situation. At one side, where he had ordered me to leave, the other side, he himself was suffering because of the death of his beloved 'Başulu' whom he had thought to be dead for many years, but was alive.

My story was just one-sided. I was hoping to bloom flowers of love in his heart, but everything had come to an end. I hadn't felt for any man as much as him and I might never be able to. No matter what, my heart 'll always burn for Melikşah. His fragrance 'll remain forever. But, now that I know there's nothing left for me in his heart, I hope he overcomes the grief of Basulu's death and stays happy in life.

With a stone tied to my heart, and bidding a farewell to everyone in the palace, I left along with Burçak.

His happiness is all that matters to me now. Hoşçakal Meliksah'ım

Melikşah's POV

After dethroning Terken hatun, I had decided that for now, as no lady in the palace fits well to be the 'Baş Hatun', I'd consider calling my sister Safiye to Isfahan to serve as the Baş Hatun until the matters solve.

Deeply wounded inside, I can't explain what I felt. The lady whom I thought dead for 18 years, turned to be alive. My wife, my Başulu ..
And now, when fate brought us closer, I lost her forever.
I couldn't even see her enough for the last time. My weak heart can't bear anymore deceptions. Yes, I was and I've been deceived since many years.

Then a Melik, now a Sultan who is ready to sacrifice his love, his son and every joy of his for the welfare of the state, doesn't he deserve peace and tranquillity?

"Ya Rabbim!" I cried to my Lord staring at the open sky.
"Indeed, to you is our return. Give me patience to deal with this loss Rabbim. Open for me my paths, grant me knowledge and wisdom. Grant me with peace and love. Ya Rabbim!"

Endless tears dropped from my eyes. I had hopes that he'd grant me with lights of love and peace which would help me carry the Seljuk state forward. Indeed, only he could show me the way.

Meanwhile, I heard footsteps approaching me. I assumed it might be Kamaç.

"Sultanım, Hace Nizamülmülk wants to have a conversation with you.."

I had no strength left to shout at him. In a very low intensity, I asked him to leave.
Kamaç understood my grief and left immediately.

Later, I offered my prayer and went to sleep. I couldn't sleep. I couldn't forget but I tried.

"Elçin"
I screamed her name.

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A/N: I've used some Turkish phrases/words in the context, 'll be translating those at the end of each chapter.

Hoşçakal Melikşah'ım : Goodbye Melikşah

Baş Hatun: Head Lady

Melik: Crown Prince

Ya Rabbim! : Oh My Lord!

Sultanım: My King

This chapter was quite short, the upcoming ones 'll be longer :)

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