Not One Sided

18 pt 2.

Elçin's POV

"Efendım?" I asked.

His gaze paused for a few seconds at me and then told,
"Hiç...Dikkatet!"

I nodded and left.

2 days later after arrival at Anatolia,

I had mixed feelings. I was happy, but at the same time sad and disappointed over my brother.

He came forward to welcome and hug me.

"Elçinım, nasılsın?" He asked holding my arms gently with his hands and a sort of brightness in his eyes. Obviously, he was happy to see me  after so long.

"Iyim abim- siz?"

"I was fine but to see you safe and sound I'm very happy."

"Why did you escape ağabey? What's the point now?"
I asked in a calm tone.

"Elçinım, Staying in the prison, I couldn't prove myself, I couldn't prove to my people that I've changed and 'll follow the right path.
Aren't you happy to see me?"

"Yok...It's nothing like that. I'm just a little tired that's why."
I smiled and replied.

"Elçin, what about your marriage? Are you-?"

I didn't let him complete and told,

"It was a sudden decision. I mean, because of the circumstances. Don't worry we'll seperate soon."

He sighed.

"Tamam, you must be tired. Take some rest. We can discuss all this later."

I nodded and left to my room.

I couldn't sleep that night. I felt as though he called my name but I couldn't respond. If he would experience those anxiety attacks, who would be there to calm him, who would be there to caress his forehead and help him overcome. All such worries crowded my heart and mind.

During my Fajr prayer, while prostrating to my Lord, I asked for a peace of mind.

With my forehead on the prayer mat, and drops of tears rolling down my eyes, I cried to him.

"Ya Rabbim, why did you bring him in my life if he was to be snatched away?
I try to overcome every battle, but fall weak in this. His face appears before my eyes everytime and 'Elçin' rings in my ears. Keep him safe and sound. If he isn't in my fate, I don't want to be forced in his life, give me patience."

I raised my hands in prayer and just cried to him.

A few minutes later, just before the sunrise, I was unpacking the other clothes. Among them was, the ring.
It shone the same way as it did before, yet seemed dull to me.

The ring seemed lifeless to me at that moment. Obviously, it was always lifeless, but was an epitome of my love and affection for him, also filled with hopes.
Somewhere, in my heart, I had begun to lose every hope of our relationship.

While I was still staring at the ring,

"Sultan Melikşah hazretlerı!"

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Hiç- Nothing

Dikkatet - Be careful

Elçinım- My Elçin

Siz- You?

Abim - My brother

Ağabey - Brother

Sultan Melikşah hazretlerı- Sultan Melikşah His Excellency