Not One Sided

24. Ya Rabbim!

  Melikşah's POV

"Ya rabbim! Why didn't anyone accompany her?" I screamed.

"Uff..it was my fault!"

Even Kılıç wasn't present. For a second, I doubted him but then convinced myself that he is his brother and no matter what would never harm his sister.

"Hadi, get the horses ready.We've to search for Elçin hatun." I told the soldiers.

"Sultanım, I'll also come along with you.." Burçak told.

I nodded. We left with the hope that we would find her soon.
We went towards the forest where she usually went to hunt.

"Sultanım, what if she didn't come here?" Burçak asked.

"Maybe she came here. The last time she had come here to hunt. If not this time then, we can start from here.
Hadi, go in every possible direction from here."

"Sultanım, what if she went somewhere on her own and may return. Maybe.." one soldier told.

"How long has it been? It's almost evening! And why would she go somewhere else?"
I nearly screamed.

We went in search and even asked the nearby houses. My hope began to fade away when there was no sign of her,
not even of anything suspicious.

Sat at the corner of the tree in dark. The only source of light was moon. While the other soldiers were still in search, I sat staring at the moon.

"Allahım, niye? Why do you put me in such tests? Give me a hundred battles to fight, I will. Ama I really can't bear this. These many hours passed, where is she? Nerede Elçin?" I cried to him.

My heart was sobbing inside. I really felt as though she would come the next moment and ask, 'Neoldu, Sultanım?' resting my head over her shoulder. And caressing my forehead with her warm hand, would say, 'Sakın ol, ben burdayim.'
But she wasn't there...

"Biliyorum, you don't burden a soul more than he can bear. Ama I don't want to face that heartbreak again. Days back when Başulu died, I cried to you staring at this same moon. Didn't you bring a light of hope in my life? You did! Lütfen, don't snatch away that light when a few roses have begun to grow in my barren heart.
Keep her safe wherever she is until I find her, lütfen. Lütfen, ya Rabbim!"

I cried to him. Drops of tears rolled down my eyes just in the hope that he would show a way.

Elçin's POV

Really dark all around, there was no soul and the winds blew enough.
My hands shackled and repeated failures to get rid of it, my wrists bled.
I was tired and helpless. All that erupted me was fear. Fear of the darkness and of losing myself. Probably that was what Markus wanted.
I tried to shut my eyes in order to overcome but couldn't.

On my knees, raised my hands and prayed to him staring at the moon.

"Ya rabbim! I won't beg for anything else. Ama take my life before that disgusting Markus does something else and-and I don't need to say this ama- take care of him."

Saying this, I burst in tears.

"I couldn't even tell you a sorry. Seni Seviyorum Melikşah!" I cried.

"Ya rabbim, you've always been a witness, I had no greed. There 've been many obstacles to our relationship...many..
Ama can anyone..really anyone wipe off his name from my heart? You ignited the flame of love in my heart, Allahım! Was it my fault? Melikşah didn't belong to Elçin but Elçin 'll always be his. Until the last breath..."

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Ya Rabbim! - Oh my Lord!

Hadi - Come on

Allahım - My Allah

Nerede Elçin? - Where's Elçin?

Biliyorum - I know

Lütfen - Please

Seni Seviyorum Melikşah- I love you, Melikşah