Lucky Me

Asteroids

**Previously....**

Lucy's POV

"Hey, have you ever taken one of those tests?"
"um, ugh, what tests?" Charlie asked, confused. "those tests in your bathroom. Have you ever taken a random one? Just for the hell of it?"

"why in the name of Crowley would I do that? It would just be negative" she replied, sounding beyond perplexed. Then I sighed. "but what if it wasn't?"

**NOW**

"What if it wasn't what?" Charlie questioned. I sighed, and swallowed, running my hand through my oily hair. It seemed in the last 60 minutes I had been carding my hand through my hair rigorously as nerves flooded my body. "Negative..." I answered in such a murmur that my best friend had to repeat my words back to me to clarify. "negative?" She asked, "that it wasn't negative?" she pushed again. I could picture her face contorted as she chewed on my hinting. "babe, if it wasn't neg- ohhh shit! " she gasped as the penny dropped. "honey, don't go anywhere. I'll be round in ten minutes" and with that she hung up the phone. "Like I'm gonna go anywhere..." I sighed to myself as I stared at the positive pregnancy test I held in my hands.

.........

True to her word, 10 minutes later, I heard Charlie open the front door. I heard her put her purse by her shoes and her soft footsteps on the carpeted staircase. "Knock knock" she said gently pushing open the bathroom door further. I looked up as my head sat in my right hand, my left still clutching the test (I was sitting on the toilet; lid down and my modesty in tact I might add since I'd pulled up my jeans long before she'd arrived) 

"hey" I sighed at her, then moving my gaze back down to the plastic stick in my hand. "do you want this, cause I don't" I muttered, spinning it around in my fingers so it was pointing towards her. Charlie knelt down opposite me, surprising me by taking the thing out of my hands. I glanced up at her as she looked down at the stick. Holding the ends in each of her hands. A frown on her face as though she was studying some confusing math puzzle. "Have you done-"

"that's the third one. The others are in the trash." I cut her off, "and all-"

"positive. yes" I answered her again. And not with the kind of enthusiasm most would use when finding out they had a bun in the oven. My head fell into my hands as I took a loud breath, brushing my hair back as I breathed in deeply. 

"did you have an idea?" Charlie asked gently. This wasn't an easy subject for either of us to talk about. Since we both had said we couldn't see us with kids any time soon. Especially not like this. "no. Not really. I mean, I'm on the pill. I take my breaks between, always have." I stated surely. "I mean..." trailing off, Charlie looked at me with a raised brow. "When Chris and I split up, I came off it for a while. Like I wasn't in any mood for hooking up or anything like that." I said, which Charlie already knew. "a-and then I think I started back on it a few weeks before San Diego" I pondered for a moment. "soo...like, you'd not given it time to get into your system before you and Evans got it on" she kind of asked. "but that was like 3 months ago, I can't be..." I looked down to my stomach, not realising I was cradling it with my hands. I quickly moved it away and rubbed my face. "I can't believe this is happening right now" I cried in despair. "I've just gotten everything sorted with my job, I am totally in love with Groot!" I exclaimed. "why did I have to go and mess this all up and sleep with Chris!" I cried out, literally- the tears were running down my cheeks as I looked back at Charlie. Her face couldn't lie to me, as she looked at me with shock. "Do you....do you, I mean, Lucy..." She had no idea what the hell to say to me. Jesus, I didn't know what to say to myself either. She huffed out another breath as she looked down at the test she was still holding. "you gotta tell him Luce" she said darkly. 

There goes my guts rolling over again when she said it. Her green eyes looked up at me, "he isn't gonna want this" I gestured to myself- ourself, ugh me and...oh god... "why won't he?" Charlie frowned. I let out a bitter laugh. "we have barely gotten back together. We haven't even spent more than a week together and we live with the whole United States between us!" I rambled angrily. "this is such a fucking mess" I sighed, covering my face with my hands. 

"well I'm here." Charlie spoke up gently from her side of the bathroom. I looked up at her through my tear soaked lashes and gave her a half hearted smile. "I know" I nodded, "you always are" I added, as she sent me back a wide grin. "besties. Through it all" she said, pointing at me with the stick. "will you just put the god damn stick down" I couldn't help but grin. "I peed on that" I added, making her shrug. "It's cool. I'll be dealing with worse than that in six months time when it's popping out and I'm catching it" she teased, leaning left and right like she was readying herself to catch something. Ugh. I felt sick again. "Charl...I don't know if I...." My throat tightened as the thoughts spread through my head. I ran my hand through my greasy hair. "what if I can't do this on my own?" I asked. "babe, why would you be doing this alone?" she questioned. "Chris is gonna be so freakin' excited about this" she beamed, "I remember watching an interview where he said he can't wait to have kids. Get married, the whole Shebang!" she exclaimed with a bright smile. But none of this was looking like a sunny prospect right now. None of it was how I expected it to be. It was like a literal nightmare, and there was no way I was waking up from this one. Why does life go by, finding you in a moment of peace. A moment of inner calm and happiness and then think 'right, Lucy is looking a little too happy right now. Let's send in an asteroid and cave in her whole perfect little world'.  Sometimes life sucked. And this was the tiniest asteroid that was going to do the most damage to my world. And Chris'. But he just didn't know it yet.