𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐀𝐂𝐊 𝐎𝐍 𝐓𝐈𝐓𝐀𝐍 ◦ 𝐈𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬

𝐑𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐫 𝐁𝐫𝐚𝐮𝐧 || 𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐖𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐀𝐥𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭

𝐒𝐨𝐧𝐠: 𝐒𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 ~ 𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐬𝐡𝐦𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐨, 𝐤𝐡𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐝

Warning: Feels, mentions of thinking of committing suicide

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The night grew dark as everyone bid their goodbyes, heading back to their quarters seen we are still in the army. Recently I have been seeing Reiner looking pretty out of it, which started to concern me. He seems...scared.....lost, like something was just not right. Rain beats down after a hot day, as I try my best to run out of the rain to my quarters to go look for Reiner, feeling the air pick up making me feel cold.

"Dammit," i mutter, as I stood at the front door shaking the water off me taking my coat off and hanging it on the rack on the side.

The place was a sturdy old place, but it was better than nothing to be honest. While heading to the stairs, I almost collide into someone. "Ahh s-sorry!" i exclaim, realising it's Porco. 

"What are you doing?" he questions, his hands in his pockets.

"I um....just got back from....." I purse my lips. ".....You know what? Never mind, I'm a little preoccupied."

"Why is that?"

"Um......actually do you know where Reiner is?" I ask him, sheepishly.

"Him, out of everyone it has to be him?" he questions, stepping closer to me. "That guy is trouble, he is still a loser. I suggest you find Pieck instead, I don't want you near Reiner."

My eyes widen narrowing in anger, "Don't you bloody tell me what to do," I say sternly, even though he still towers over me. "Maybe Reiner and I get along better than you, and also.....you don't know what he has been through have you?!"

"...."

"That's what I thought," i say, turning around.

"You don't know either, about him?" He asks me, but I ignore him walking up the stairs in a storming rage. I grit my teeth in frustration, making it to the next floor and heading to my room. While walking down the quiet hallway, I saw light coming from Reiner's room.

"Reiner...."

I walk to his door knocking it gently, "Who is it?" i hear him on the other side, as I open it slowly.

"It's (Y/N)," I reply, as I let myself in. 

He sat on his bed look drained or in deep thought, to which concerned me very much. He looks me up and down, "So is there anything you need?" he asks me, giving me his full attention. His eyes looked like he holds no hope, no life in him.

"Reiner........are you okay?"

With just those three simple words I saw his eyes widen, his breathe starts to shake violently seeing him looking afraid. Looking like he is about to break down, seeing light tears at the corner of his eyes. I walk over to him, and embraced him tightly. He tenses up for a second, as I rub his back soothingly as he began to cry in my shoulder. I felt his strong biceps embrace me tightly, knowing he has a lot bottling in his heart.

"Reiner......I'm always gonna be here for you, no matter what," I whisper, as I run my fingers through his blonde tufts of hair.

"I'm sorry," He apologises, as my eyes widen pulling away looking into amber orbs.

"What for?"

"I've been thinking things that I.....s-shouldn't have," he began, seeing his face holding so much pain and hurt. "I-I tried to k-kill myself (Y/N), I have tried my damn best with everything I have with my power!! Now.....I have nothing to gain, I feel like no matter what I do I get tossed away in the end. I lost Bertholdt, Annie hasn't returned and I blame myself for Marcel's death. I forced them all to push forward with the mission, and I......I even made friends on that damn island!!! I can't decide what I am on now, and my damn father does accept me!!!"

My eyes widen in shock as my breathe hitches in my throat in response, before feeling small tears roll down my cheeks. I then smile gently leaning forward, cupping his cheek. "Reiner, it's not your fault," i whisper gently. "You have been put under so much stress, power, control, anger, two sides of a bet and so much. Nothing is your fault, it's the Marleyan's fault. We Eldians are only doing this, to protect the ones we care about. I'm doing this, for you Reiner. You are all I have left, because I have no one to go too. If you kill yourself, I would never forgive you."

"(Y/N)...."

"Reiner you are in pain, you are hurting about what happened all those years," i say, caressing his cheek with my thumb wiping away his tears. I then felt his hand rest over mine, leaning into my touch closing his eyes. He takes a deep breathe, his body slowly relaxing into my touch. "I want to be that person you can rely on, and I know you don't want too....but I want too because I love you Reiner."

"Huh?" he gasps, looking into my eyes.

"I lived my whole life as a soldier, seeing my parents been murdered in front of me at a young age thinking they sold me," I say, biting my tongue tightly. "No one has ever cared about me, til I met you, Pieck, Annie and even Bert and Marcel. Porco is still a pushover and stubborn, but I have never felt like home until i'm with you."

"I-I never knew," Reiner whispers.

"That's why i'm being grateful," I say, wiping more of his tears. "You can cry if you want, it's better than ending it all. It's better than putting a bullet in your head, because I can't imagine a world without you til you pass on the armoured titan."

I felt him wrap his arms around me pulling me into his arms, when he looks deeply into my eyes. "I love you too, (Y/N)," he whispers, giving him a gentle smile. He leans his forehead on mine, closing our eyes connecting to each other. His fingers run though my hair gently, before opening my eyes we both lean in as our lips touch ever so gently. Our lips then firmly press together, feeling him pour his emotions into this kiss.

We move in sync feeling our cheeks growing warm, finally feeling better to tell him how I felt than any later. We pull away for air as our eyes were in a lull sleepy gaze, before he kisses me again knowing he needed this way of affection because judging from what he has told me from his past, he has never felt loved.

"Thank you," he breathes out, wrapping his arms around me in a comforting way. "You're everything I need, and only you."

"That's all I need to hear," I hum, feeling his fingers run through my hair again. "Just......keep pushing forward, for me at least? For your mother, for you cousin. I will keep pushing forward for you too."

"I will, I will," he cries, his voice muffles in the crook of my neck.

"Everything will be alright, I promise," i whisper gently.

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A/N: Hey guys, so I have been getting a lot of feels of Reiner. He deserves alot, and he has gone through alot even from his perspective. I was watching an AMV video on youtube, and I teared up getting motivation for this. Anyway have a great day or night and stay safe 

~ Little Bean