𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐀𝐂𝐊 𝐎𝐍 𝐓𝐈𝐓𝐀𝐍 ◦ 𝐈𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬

𝐉𝐞𝐚𝐧 𝐊𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐜𝐡𝐭𝐞𝐢𝐧 || 𝐃𝐫𝐨𝐰𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐈𝐧 𝐌𝐲 𝐓𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬

𝐒𝐨𝐧𝐠: 𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐥 ~ 𝐙𝐨𝐞 𝐖𝐞𝐞𝐬

('Anxious' reader)

Warning: Self-doubt, Fluff,

Words: 1.3k

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What does anxiety and depression feel like to you?........

"It feels like my body is sinking deep into an ocean, like I'm tied to a large boulder, I'm suffocating til I can't breath....." 

How does that make you feel?

"I'm tired......exhausted.......it's like my own mind is wandering on it's own without a destination...."

Would anything help take this pain from you, so you can have a destination, a path?

"No.......no one or anything can save me, but myself........"

What if there was someone or something out there, willing to take a part of your heart and risk their life for yours?

"No one has even gone lengths for me, so why would I bother thinking that way? No one loves or cares about me..."

Life can throw in pure coincidence scenarios, you just need to open your eyes....

"What do you mean?"

What about him? What about that guy, who has always stood by you.....?

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The early morning air always grew so cold, my cheeks grew cold to the touch. Nuzzling my face into my pillow, I curl my arm around my blanket and threw it over my head with irritation. My body sinks further into the soft mattress, feeling unmotivated to hop out of bed. My thoughts slowly begin to take over my morning rest, that I soon start to overthink about too many things at once.

Would I be scolded for being late?....

"No, we don't have training this morning," mumbling to myself, squeezing my eyes tightly.

Would I starve later if I skip breakfast?....

"I'll be fine, I can wait til lunchtime," licking my chapped lips, snuggling into my blankets.

But it would consider I'm being lazy again.....

"I'm not lazy, I'm just resting," murmuring to myself, I roll over to my other side curling up into a ball. 

The sound of distant laughter echoes down the hallway, while my eyes slowly flutter open feeling my chest tighten. Is it my fault not stepping out much since we regained Shiganshina? After taking all titans down around the island, we were now finally free from the common threat. But now, a new threat awaits us, but currently we're just training and gaining more military strength and power from different lands, we didn't know about.

"(N/N)!!!" 

Burying my face into the blanket I felt the mattress dip down beside me, before a hand rests on my shoulder. 

"(N/N), come on..........we should have breakfast together," his voice was soothing, he was too nice for me. 

".........."

"Come on (N/N), you need to eat," he nudges me, while I groan in response. He sighs deeply before feeling the bed shuffle, until I felt arms hug around my covered form. 

"Jean?"

He hums, "Hmm....what?"

"What are you doing?" I question softly, before clearing my croaky voice. "I mean--"