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𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐢𝐞 𝐒𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 || 𝐁𝐫𝐮𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭

𝐒𝐨𝐧𝐠: 𝐁𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐆𝐨 ~ 𝐋𝐞𝐰𝐢𝐬 𝐂𝐚𝐩𝐚𝐥𝐝𝐢 (𝐑𝐨𝐜𝐤 𝐂𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫)

(Requested by pieksbuttcheeks)

Warning: Fluff, Feel, Angst

Words: 1.3k

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Our mission was a success, but......it brought many deaths upon us. More pain to fill our hearts, to squeeze it tight and, to long for their existence. Eren brought us into a tight situation, going further than we planned causing himself to be put behind bars after what he did. Even losing one of my closets best friend was murdered right in front of my eyes, leaving my chest and body grow number than before. 

Connie and Jean are mourning for their loss, as Connie and Sasha were very close like twins. The two were knuckleheads, always being idiots and yelling. Yet, I have fallen for Connie, my best friend. My comrade.

Walking out to the grave sight I saw a commotion going on, seeing Niccolo standing before Sasha's grave with the Braus family standing before her. I purse my lips together, my throat growing dry. I could comprehend how I felt right now, like I couldn't feel anymore. Losing a part of myself, but.....I shouldn't be like that.

"Miss (L/N)......" I hear someone whisper, as I look up to see Mr Braus.

"Mr Braus," i salute him, looking him dead in his eyes to show respect. I then bow, "Your daughter fought well, she was an amazing soldier and comrade and her death won't be in vain!"

My eyes were tight shut afraid to look into his eyes once more, before I felt a hand on my shoulder seeing Connie right beside me and Mr Braus smiling softly. "There is no need for formalities, Miss (L/N)," he says softly.

"I'm sorry Connie," i apologise, turning to him as well. "I should've stopped it, I should've done something about it!"

"No, because if you did..........I would still grieve," he wavers, as I saw tears in his eyes. I wipe away my tears before standing before her grave, as I saw white roses and other beautiful flowers presented on his gravestone. I tighten my grip, feeling frustrated.

{TimeSkip}

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I head to the mess halls to grab dinner, as the night sky was still down pour from the rain earlier today. Swallowing thickly I wipe away my dry tears, before entering the building. I scan the room, seeing only Jean sitting at the table alone. I walk over to him slowly seeing that he got me dinner, "Jean......why are you by yourself?" I ask him softly, when he lazily lifts his head.

"I don't know where Connie is, but....." he began, trailing his eyes to the door behind me. "......he is torn, and alone right now. Eat now, then you can go find him.....I haven't seen you eat for a while."

"O-Okay," 

With that I sat down seeing him place my dinner in front of me, but in the pits of my stomach I felt like I lost my appetite already. I sigh deeply lifting the food with the fork, and shoved it in my mouth slowly. I grimace in disgust, not because of the taste but how I'm eating and Connie isn't.

"Remember that time when we went searching for Sasha, until we found her......with Niccolo?" Jean asks me, reminiscing the past. He chuckles softly, "Damn, the two were meant to be. He loved making food, and she enjoyed his meals. Match made in heaven. So.......where is your romance? Have you confessed to Connie yet?"

My eyes widen lightly choking on my food, "What...I-It's not appropriate to say things like that now," i hiss softly, seeing him smirk. His eyes look into mine, with amusement.

"Sure, better say something if anything happens," 

"So you know that I might lose my chance?" I questions, when he looks away seeing a smile curl upon his lips.

"You have loved him for four damn years, get with the program," He remarks. "You two obviously know it, but you two are too shy to say a damn thing."

"So....where is your girlfriend?" I smirk, enjoying the conversation being off topic about Sasha for now. It was good, because the tension wasn't helping with my communication.

"Um....well, Mikasa......will find it in her heart to acknowledge me," 

"I feel sorry for you, she seems besotted with Eren,"

"Yeah, well......just give her more time," he says sadly, as we continue to talk some more before time started ticking. I grew more worried for Connie not attending dinner, so I grabbed some bread like the good old days and walked out of the building with Jean heading back to his quarters.

{TimeSkip}

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I kept looking for Connie all over our quarters, when i remember a certain spot he liked if he got frustrated or needs to cool down. Walking swiftly down the hallway, I found myself near a small garden within Trost finding a silhouette of a man sitting near the river side. It was near our quarters, as I notice he was throwing rocks.

I walk over quietly before sitting down beside him, "Connie, I've got you something to eat," I softly say, as he turns to me.

"What are you doing here?" he questions, his voice hoarse and croaky from sobbing.

"Because I came to find you," i reply, turning to him I passing him his bread. He slowly takes it, hesitating before grasping it.

"T-Thank you,"

He slowly bites into it letting eat peacefully, seeing him finally eat  before finishing. Once he was done he wipes away his stray tears that was threatening to spill, hearing him sniffle. I shuffle over to him, placing my arms around him. He automatically wraps his arms around me, as I rub his back soothingly.

"We are both still grieving," i whisper softly, my fingers run though his tufts of hair before I felt him sobbing in my chest. I didn't care, because he needed to be comforted. 

"Why her? Why did she have to go?!" He cries in my shoulder.

"I guess.......something is coming, so she taken somewhere more safer," I reply softly.

"That sounds better than just losing her," He replies, before pulling away. His eyes widen seeing tears rolling down my cheeks, before he leans forward wiping away my stray tears. His soft gentle touch, sent a shiver down my spine before he cups my cheek. "I'm just glad......that you didn't leave me."

"Why is that?" I ask him, feeling my cheeks burn from his touch.

"I know.....it's a wrong time, and place......but if i don't say it and something happe--"

"Nothing is gonna happen to me, Connie," I assure him, as he runs his fingers through my hair. He brushes away the strand of hair that fell over my face, "Trust me."

We both lean our foreheads together, "I will always trust you," he whispers, before he leans in kissing me gently against my lips. We pull away slowly before I grab his collar, pulling him in as I kiss him showing my feelings. He smirks against the kiss, before deepening the kiss. It felt warm, comforting, love, and safe. Damn, I feel like a heavy burden has been lifted.

"I love you, Connie," i whisper, pulling away slowly looking into his eyes.

"I love you too, (Y/N).....and I will make sure nothing will happen to you," he whispers, touching our foreheads together closing our eyes.

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A/N: hey guys, sorry for my lack of updating recently. So much has happened, and even school got in the way. I will try and update more, and thanks for reading. 

~ Little Bean