𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐀𝐂𝐊 𝐎𝐍 𝐓𝐈𝐓𝐀𝐍 ◦ 𝐈𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬

𝐉𝐞𝐚𝐧 𝐊𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐜𝐡𝐭𝐞𝐢𝐧 || 𝐏𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐞𝐜𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐞𝐲𝐞𝐬

𝐒𝐨𝐧𝐠: 𝐏𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐞𝐜𝐭 ~ 𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐊

(Jean x 'Chubby' reader) (This is for all people who are insecure, and this is just a message from me to you) ~ Based before season 4

Warning: Fluff, cuteness, feels

Words: 1.2k

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Staring at myself in the mirror in my dusty room, I felt disgusted with myself touching my chubby sides. I was slightly filled more out than anyone, and I envied Sasha seen she ate so much but would stay skinny. I slip my black button shirt up, before slipping on pants before heading out to the common room within trost. We all stay in a large building, which was built recently for the survey corps to stay in.

"Hey (Y/N), you want to have a biscuit and tea?!" Sasha asks, as i bit my bottom lip tightly.

"U-Um.....n-no thank you," i shake my head, before sitting down seeing Mikasa, Armin and Eren sitting together. Sasha and Connie was busy chatting, and Jean.....just sat down beside me on the couch feeling it dip beside me.

"Hey....did you sleep well?" he asks gently, as my cheeks flare up not noticing the looks Sasha and Connie were making.

"Y-yeah.....still getting use to the news bed," i reply, scratching my arm nervously before I tuck a strand of hair behind my ear. "You?"

"Alright, bit lonely in my room but okay,"

"Alone?" I question, raising an eyebrow hearing him laugh nervously.

"Alone....did i say that? Pfft, no!" he exclaims, as I chuckle softly.

"Well at least you slept okay,"

"Y-Yeah,"

"Alright let's head to the mess halls for breakfast!!" Sasha announces, with pure excitement but we all knew full well she wanted to see Niccolo too of course. She finally found her match, which was honestly cute.

To be honest I lost my appetite not wanting to eat, afraid to gain weight and I even felt really ugly. What is with this negativity? I then felt someone tapping my shoulder, seeing Jean waving his hand in front.

"Hey, you coming?" he questions.

"U-Um.....s-sure,"

"Okay, let's go,"

{TimeSkip}

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I sat at the table with my eyes staring plainly at my food, as I just dug my fork into my food playing lightly. I felt like my stomach was churning for food, but i felt too awful to eat food. I felt like I didn't deserve to eat, watching all the girls look amazing.

"You gonna eat?" I hear Sasha ask me, in curiosity.

"Oi Sasha, don't take her food if that is the case," Jean warns her.

"I'm not, it's just.....she hasn't eaten anything since a few days ago," She replies, as I avoid everyones looks. After a matter of silence I gave them a soft smile, shrugging it off.

"It's fine," I assure them, before standing up and pushed my plate away heading out of the building. 

Scratching my arm nervously I felt tears streaming down my cheek, feeling my breathe quicken in an anxiety attack. I couldn't comprehend how I felt there and then, but I felt like a fool. I ran my fingers through my hair, walking swiftly away from the area to my favourite spot to cool off. The moon was covered, giving me more of a view of the stars. 

"Why can't I just be normal?"

"Normal?" i hear, as my eyes widen seeing jean right behind me.

"J-Jean.....w-what are you doing here?" I ask him softly, hiding my wavering voice.

"Well because you look down, even more so.....you really haven't been eating well," He says, concern lacing his voice. I swallow thickly, avoiding his gaze when I felt his hand wrap around my wrist pulling me close to him. My face flares up, as he tilts my chin up with his knuckle. "Don't ignore me, I'm getting worried!"

"I'm.....fine,"

"I know you're not okay, what is going on with you?" he questions, feeling tears start to well up threatening to spill. A single tear finally releases, as his eyes widen.

"S-Sorry," i say, when his thumb wipes away my tear before cupping my cheeks.

"No need, so......what is going on? I can help," he whispers softly, as I bite my lip.

"J-Jean.......am....am I beautiful?" i waver, as his face softens.

"Yes, you are very beautiful," he breathes out, feeling his fingers run through my hair. I was new to this affection, feeling my body slightly shaking in frustration. "Why would ask me this?"

"I'm not skinny and I feel like no guy would want me seen I'm fat," I began, when he cuts me off placing a finger against my lips.

"I have heard enough," he says firmly, seeing his eyes look into mine that I could millions of stars reflecting his beautiful eyes. "You are perfect in my eyes, and no one can change that. In my opinion I love chubby girls, because I think there is more to love."

"J-Jean......"

"You know....I love you (Y/N)," he breathes out, as he places his hands around my waist feeling self conscious when he rubs my sides. "I'm afraid of being neglected, but......I love how you care a lot. I love your badass side, and I love your adorable side. I want all of you, even if you think you're not beautiful......you are."

Tears start streaming down my cheeks as he embraces me tightly, holding him close to me. My body trembles in his hold, feeling him run his fingers through my hair. My cries were quiet whimpers, and gritting my teeth trying my best not to cry out anymore. He hums softly as I pull away, "D-Do you really mean this?" I ask him, trying my best not believe the words coming from him.

"I do, with the bottom of my damn heart," 

With that he lifts my chin up and leans down pressing his lips against mine, making my breathe hitch in my throat. I then return the kiss slowly embracing him, as his hands slide down rubbing my chubby curves. "Beautiful......cute.....squishy....just how I like it," he whispers against the kiss, as my face grows warm. 

He deepens the kiss feeling my mind swirl with excitement, as he holds me close to him. Warm tears of joy rolls down, feeling more confident. He then pulls away briefly for air, as he chuckles. We lean our foreheads together, "Now....I'm the only one that can tell you are beautiful, loved and you're mine," he says firmly, before pecking my lips again. "Okay?"

"Okay,"

"And.....you will go and eat something okay?"

I sigh deeply when he chuckles, "Come on, you need to eat baby girl," he whispers, making my heart skip a beat earning another chuckle erupt from his throat. 

"Fine,"

"That's my girl,"

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A/N: Hey guys, sorry for my lack of updating. I have been trying to find some more ideas and characters to write about. Only men x 'girl' reader is how i'm comfortable with writing. Anyway stay safe you all

~ Little Bean