All A Joke (Eren X Reader) {Modern AU}

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Eren POV

I laid in bed for about 20 minutes with Y/N. She was still asleep and looked peaceful. I put a blanket over her and went to go find some fruit for her.

I don't know if she ate today or not so a bit of fruit won't hurt.

"Hi sweetheart, how is she doing?" My mom asked me.

"Honestly, I don't know. She hasn't told me anything yet. But she's napping right now so hopefully she feels inclined to tell me when she wakes up. I just haven't really seen her like this. Its weird." I said to my mom. Releasing a sigh at the end.

"That's what happens. You both open up more and are willing to share more sides with one another." My mom said smiling to me.

"I came to get a cup of fruit for when she wakes up. She's constantly having Th at in the mornings but I don't know if she's eaten yet today."

"We should have some in the fridge. I believe all we have are strawberries and blueberries. Maybe a mandarin as well. I have to go grocery shopping with your father tomorrow morning." I checked in the fridge and my mom was right.

Except we didn't have any mandarins. Only strawberries and blueberries. But that'll do.

Its just so I know she had Something in her stomach before dinner time.

I washed the berries and put a few in a cup to take to Y/N.

When I got to my room She was still asleep. This time she was snuggling up with the blanket I had laid in top of her.

She looked adorable. I just smiled and caught myself staring after a minute. I put the cup down on my desk and got back in bed.

It wouldn't hurt to hold her again. I mean she's technically my girlfriend.  Regardless I think shed feel better if she woke up the way she fell asleep.

Then I started thinking again. And I was beginning to hate when this happens. But I also liked it.

I thought about the plan. The stupid plan. Because of that stupid plan I got stuck trying to have Y/N trust me and get close to me enough where I can date her.

Fake date, no stings attached, all for my own amusement to pick on her.

But then as I got closer to her and she opened up, I ended up opening up too. Which I expected but I should have just lied instead of trying to be my real self.

She brought out a side that was new to me. One that I didn't know existed. Internally of course. I was constantly frustrated with trying to figure out how Exactly I was feeling and such.

It was an everyday topic within at this point.

The more I thought about it the more I felt like an asshole. She shouldn't have to put up with me. Especially since I just planned in humiliating her in front of pretty much the whole school.

Then I thought back on the night I was drunk. But I remembered pretty much everything I said.

I just felt anger that night. Frustration. I hated the idea that I was realizing that Y/N meant more to me than I had anticipated.

But drunken words are sober thoughts.

For the next 10 minutes I tried reasoning with myself mentally that I didn't truly feel that way towards Y/N. That I didn't hold any anger or frustration towards her.

But There was still constantly something in the back of my head that would say she's not worth it. Th at she deserves what's coming to her.

That's been drilled into my head by Mikasa and myself. That she's an easy target that won't retaliate and we can have our way with her.