All A Joke (Eren X Reader) {Modern AU}

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Eren POV

Since That time we went to Historia's house after finals, I've began to felt weird. Uneasy.

I completely forgot about the plan we had until a week and a half before that time.

I don't want to go through with that plan. I've been really Genuinely enjoying myself with the time I've spent with Y/N.

She's really fun to be around.

Mikasa has been weird around me as well.

It's as if she knows that I really do enjoy having Y/N around.

Mikasa was coming over today to hang out for a bit.

It was mid afternoon and the doorbell rang.

I opened the door and there was Mikasa standing typing away on her phone.

"Hey come on in. Did you want anything to drink?" I asked her.

"No I'm ok."

"Mom, Mikasa is here. We're going to be in my room." I called out and heard her say ok.

We went into my room and I sat in my desk chair and Mikasa sprawled herself out into my bed.

"Eren we need to talk about the plan. The winter ball is just a few weeks away. Do you know how your breaking up with Y/N?" Mikasa asked me.

Shit.

Fuck.

She was right. The winter ball was only a few weeks away. And honestly, I didn't want to break up with Y/N.

I was actually happy with her. I was having my doubts on if I should tell Mikasa.

"You have a startled face. You know your silence speaks loud right... You like her. Don't you?" She spoke up again. But she ended up laughing at it.

"Eren you couldn't possibly like that loser. This was a joke. A way to have her trust no one. To humiliate her. She doesn't deserve happiness." Mikasa said.

"You're wrong. She moved something in me and I don't like the idea of breaking up with her." I said to her.

"You have to be shitting me Eren. That was the whole reason why you went through with this. Why I had to put up with seeing her around us. All to lead up to this moment. And yet you want to chicken out and say you have real feelings for her. That's ridiculous. She's nothing."

"Don't talk about her like that. She's more than that. She deserves more than this joke. Its terrible." I said to her starting to get mad.

"Oh shut up Eren. Don't you remember that conversation from when you were drunk when you guys first got together. You talked about how much you hated her. How she meant nothing. How she deserves nothing. Drunken words are sober thoughts. Before this whole thing you hated her. Despised her. Maybe even loathed her. You couldn't stand her. You constantly made fun of her for what? Now to just give up and say, oh my precious feelings were touched by hanging around her boohoo. Fuck off Eren. That's so stupid. This Bullshit your pulling isn't going to work. Either you go through with the plan, of you breaking up with her, or I'm going to end up telling her my way. It's your choice. You have to decide at the Winter Ball. This isn't negotiable. It's one or the other." She said to me.

Fucking shit.

What do I do.

"What would be your way of telling her?" I asked sounding a little frightened.

"Like hell I'm gonna tell you. I can barely put up with you right in this moment. Just know it'll be humiliating to not only her but to you as well. I care about you, but this is totally unacceptable. You let her get close to your friends. Maybe they'll want nothing to do with you either. That's why you should have slept with her and just left her. Now she built a relationship with everyone and they'll want to take her side. Maybe Jean will magically swoon in and comfort her. Maybe she'll be the one to despise you." I didn't want any of That to happen.

I want to her stay in our group.

I want her to have those support systems.

I don't want her to hate me.

I don't want that at all.

"You think about what's going to happen. I'll be heading out. I don't want to be here anymore. You better not disappoint me Eren. She doesn't deserve a good life." She said And walked out or my room. Leaving me there with my thoughts.

This whole thing was so stupid.

Why did I even agree to this in the first place.

Why did I have to be so mean and want to bring terrible things to Y/N?

Well for one, I thought she deserved to be unhappy.

But now I don't think that. She's an amazing person. She was too kind.

Sure she was a little dumb for letting me back in after hurting her multiple times. But in glad she did.

Her letting me back in was a great thing. Even though I was glad about it for other reasons. Now I'm happy because I'm Genuinely happy.

She makes me happy.

I've enjoy all the time we've spent together.

The little things. The big things. All if it.

It all made me super happy.

Being with her made me Genuinely happy.

What do I do?

I don't really want to break up with her.

But if I don't then Mikasa is going to pull some thing and I don't want that. 

I cant just say to Y/N one day "Hey I only dated you as a joke but now I really like you"  it would only push her away.

Not only That but she would hate me and we wouldn't even continue a relationship. Let alone a friendship.

All options result in us breaking up.

Unless Mikasa doesn't pull something too extravagant and we can keep it under control.

But there is no saying what will happen.

I just wish I didn't do this.

Nit even just this.

I just wish I didn't pick on Y/N to begin with.

This all could have been avoided.

Her life would have been easier.

This all just sucks.

I really don't want this to go down hill.