All A Joke (Eren X Reader) {Modern AU}

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Eren's POV

Its the day after the party and I had a great time overall. I was drunk but I remembered only spots here and there from the night.

Did I have control over the things I did? Nope not at all.

Do I regret some of the things I did? Yes. But I guess they can work in my favor.

I remembered I was dancing with a girl and was pretty much drunk at that point and then she went to get another drink. Then I saw Mikasa who was talking with Armin and a guy I had never seen before and I joined them. And I was slurring on my words.

Then I saw Y/N going up the stairs and decided to follow her. I was stumbling around a bit and bumped into a few people.

When I made it up the stairs I didn't know what room she was in. But my guess was that she was either in the bathroom or in the guest bedroom in the house. Connie told us about it for If we need do get it on for one of his parties.

Was she meeting someone up here? I saw the door with the sunflowers and opened it up and closed it behind me. She saw me and her eyes opened wide. She looked scared. I was just staring at her.

Why did I even follow her? It was just an instinct I guess.

"I'll get out of your hair. You have to let me out of the room though." She looked like she was beginning to panic.

I started to walk towards her and she was walking back. Until she hit a dresser behind her.

She looked terrified and I grabbed her wrist and flinched when I did do. For some reason that made me mad.

"I don't know why you decided to come. You ruin everything. You've ruined this party. And you're making me seem like a bad person to a lot of people. I'm not the terrible person. You are. Its all your fault." I don't really know why I was so mad but I wasn't feeling myself. I pulled her close to me by her wrist.

And then I kissed her.

"You're garbage. Disgusting. Nobody wants you around. Not even your friends." I shouted at her and noticed that she had began to cry. I felt a little bad and I tried to kiss her again. Tried to. She was struggling too much to get out of my grasp and didn't stay still.

"Please just let me go. I'll be out of your way. Just please let me go." She started to get really shaky and was crying a lot. She looked gross honestly.

I pushed her away roughly and was really mad. I wobbled out of the room and was still mad.

I saw the girl I was dancing with earlier and she had two shots. She asked where I went and I told her to the bathroom. She handed me a shot and we downed it quickly and I kissed her roughly and eventually started making out with her.

We eventually made our way back to the dance floor and she was grinding up on me. I don't remember a lot of what happened after that. I remember seeing Y/N come around the corner with Jean.

I eventually ended up with Mikasa and Armin at one point and I saw a guy go up to Y/N and Jean pulled her closer to him and then Reiner started yelling something to the guy.

A little while after me and this random dude downed 2 shots together. I couldn't even remember what he looked like.

I was wobbling around and found my way to the dance floor and was dancing up on a girl who I also don't remember. Or her name.

Eventually I saw Jean, Marco and Y/N leave together. I still felt a little mad but I went up to the group that they had just left.

"Hey guys! What's going on?" I slurred.

"Eren! You're really drunk. Your eyes are red and you smell like alcohol. Lets get you some water." Historia said to me and led me to the kitchen. She always has motherly tendencies. Always looking out for others. She looked like she didn't have an ounce of any alcohol. May be she was the designated driver or something.

We got to the kitchen and she sat me down in a stool and got a water bottle from a cooler and then handed it to me.

"You seem to have gotten a little reckless today Eren. I remember you never really drank this much." She sounded concerned for me.

"Things change Historia." I drank some water and rambled on about my night and she just laughed and listened to me.

I told every thing out of order. How I remembered things wasn't chronological.

Then I was rambling on and on and I told her that I kissed Y/N and I started laughing.

"Wait what? When? She was with us pretty much the whole night" she looked confused and concerned.

"When she was upstairs in the guest room. She freaked out and started crying." I started to laugh hysterically. 

"Maybe you're just remembering wrong. You're a little too drunk Right now Eren." She had a look of disappointment and then sighed and said she was going to go find Mikasa or Armin to take me home.

She came back with Mikasa and a slightly stumbling around Armin. And Historia helped me to Mikasa's car.

Mikasa didn't have anything to drink tonight and she dropped me off at my place. Both of my parents were away visiting my grandma who was about 2 hours away.

I went to my room and started to get really sleepy. I had to get dressed in something more comfortable.

I got into bed and I laid there in bed. Why did I kiss her? I hate her.

After thinking about everything in the morning, I had a terrible head ache. I was grouchy and groggy.

This sucks.

I guess I have to face everything though.