All A Joke (Eren X Reader) {Modern AU}

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Y/N POV

There we're still some puddles on my wall back to my house. I had a really nice day with Jean. I'm really glad he had approached me this morning. I would love to hang out with him again.

He also gave me his number to have in case of emergencies like this one. He really is a sweet guy. I really wish more people were as kind as he was.

I was very careful on my wall home. And I made it without getting splashed on again. I decided to skip out on homework since I didn't know what we covered in school for today which I didn't mind.

I decided it was time for a nap. I hopped into bed played some soft music and drifted off to sleep.

When I woke up it was almost 9 pm. I had slept for quite a while I didn't think I was that tired honestly. The house was quiet. No sounds. My music had stopped playing in assuming a while ago.

I saw that Jean had sent me a text.

Jean- Hey Y/N, I hope you got home safely. My friend Connie is having a house party next week Friday since his parents are going to be away. You should totally come by. Maybe meet some new people. See if you like the environment. I'll send you some more details about it when it's closer. :)

A party? I'm not really a social butterfly. I don't like being around a lot of people. And I'm assuming Eren and Mikasa will be there cause why wouldn't they be? I decided to text him back.

Me- A party? I'm not sure about it. I'm not really into parties. But I'll give it a thought. No promises that I will be going though.

The thought of being invited to a party was exciting but it's not really my scene. A few minutes later my phone buzzed.

Jean- That's fine by me. Just give it a thought. I'll be there. And so will Marco and Armin so we'll keep you company. It'll be fun

Fun. I hope he is right. We ended up texting a little more until he said he was going to be heading off to bed. I enjoy talking with Jean a lot. I find it easy to talk to him as well.

Morning came and I didn't get much sleep. I felt really tired in the morning. I got ready for school. Thank God it was Friday. I could come home and sleep and not have to worry about homework.

I made it to school with enough time and headed to my first period class. As class started I noticed not many people were in class today. Or at least a few people including Eren and Mikasa.

Some students trickled in and then there we're whispers among the students. Some thing about a fight. Then Armin and Reiner came and sat by me. And Reiner spoke up. "Did you hear that Jean and Eren got into a fight again? Those two are always going at it. Ever since we were younger " he said and started laughing a little.

So that's why people were trickling in. They probably were seeing the fight. That makes sense now. I hope Jean was ok. They get into tt often But they hardly ever physically fight on school grounds.

I decided to text him to see if everything was alright.

Me- Hi Jean. People were talking in my class and I overheard Th at you got into a fight. Is everything ok? I'm worried about you

I sent the message and missed what Armin had asked me. So I kindly asked him to repeat what he has said.

"I asked if you were going to be going to Connie's party next Friday? A lot of people are going. Me and Reiner are going. Oh and Sasha. Poor girl got sick yesterday. But I'm sure she'll be better by next week"

"I hope she is ok. I heard about the party. I'm not really sure if I want to go honestly. I'm not big on social events like that." I told the two sitting by me.

"What?? Have you been to a party before? You have to come! It'll be fun! High school you have to go to the parties before having to adult in the real world" Reiner had said.

"The offer is on the table Y/N. Don't feel forced to go" Armin said which made me feel better.

"I'll think about it." After that we all started talking a bit more and then the bell rang.

In my second period I got a reply from Jean.

Jean- Hey, yeah I'm fine. I just got into an argument that got physical that's all. I'll be out of school for the next 2 days. Its not terrible.

Getting Th at text made me feel better. At least he's ok. I guess I'll be sitting at lunch by myself. Maybe Marco only sits by me cause of Jean. Its ok though.

Lunch time came around and Marco did end up sitting with me which surprised me a little bit. I didn't expect him to if I'm being quite honest. We were talking and Marco is a really nice guy. Its usually Jean leading the conversation. I've hardly ever had one on one talks with Marco alone. It was nice though.

After a little bit more time, Marco excused himself to the bathroom.

And of course The peace couldn't last very long. Mikasa came up to me and Sat down and was just staring at me. I started to get a little uncomfortable and before I could say something she spoke.

"You know you ended up getting Eren suspended. If you weren't around anymore Th at wouldn't of had happened.  I don't know why you still come to school. Not many people like you. I mean think about it, I'm sure your "friends" only stay around you cause they pity you." She started laughing out. And continued

"If I were you I would be embarrassed to be alive in general. Knowing people are only around me cause they pity me. Its pathetic" After that she got up and walked away.

I was a little confused when she had said that I was the reason that they got suspended. I try my best to stay out of their way. I didn't tell anyone about the verbal abuse they throw at me.

But then I started thinking and It hurt honestly. What if the people around me are just putting up with me and pity me. I've never really felt connected with anyone. Except for Jean yesterday.

What if I'm just not meant to be around. Not talking about ending my life or anything, just, what if I belong at a different school. Or no school at all. What if I'm not meant to connect with people.

I have actually considered transferring to a different school or maybe dropping out and helping my dad with things to pay. But I don't think Either of those options will roll over well with my parents. Maybe my dad about a different school. But My mom would never agree.

Marco returned and knew something was off but I told him it was nothing.

The rest of the day Mikasa would sometimes stare at me or bump into me "accidentally."

I was relieved to be on my way back to my home. I'll have two days to myself. No Eren, no Mikasa, no one. And I was ok with that. I need to decompress. Be away from people now and again.

I just hope next week is better.