All A Joke (Eren X Reader) {Modern AU}

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Y/N POV

I got into the routine of texting Jean every two weeks. 

At least to let him know that I was ok. 

I never told him where I was or what happened. And he thankfully never pried on knowing either. 

The conversation never lasted long, more just one or two messages sent back and forth, and that was it. 

Since that conversation with my dad about working on not seeing other people as the enemy, I apologized to Erwin the next day. 

He didn't take it to heart and apologized to me as well saying he didn't mean to make me uncomfortable. 

I didn't open up much to him but that was something I was working on. Working on trusting people again. It was a little tough but Erwin was patient with me. 

I didn't tell him about what happened but he knew something happened for me to want to push people away from me. 

He tried to invite me out to eat with a few of his other friends but I had declined. I wasn't ready to be in a group setting just yet. 

He never tried pestering me to go out with him and his friends. He did talk about them occasionally though. 

I found out that he is also living on campus and is roommates with one of his friends. Said they planned to come here together. That they weren't that far from home, but that it would be more convenient to live on campus. 

He would make jokes occasionally about how if I get mixed up with the wrong people I can send them to jail. He liked making poking at the fact that I was still a minor. And I really didn't mind it. 

I felt pretty ok around Erwin. At times it seemed like I pushed him away but he understood and never took it to heart. 

One day in the library, I was doing my stats homework again and Erwin approached me, this time he wasn't alone. 

"Hey Y/N, these are my friends Levi and Hange." He said smiling to me. 

I just stared at them. I was feeling uneasy, I didn't feel ready to meet them just yet. 

I just kept staring, I started to shake. 

"I... I have to get going." I said packing up my stuff. 

"Y/N. It's ok they're good people." he said to me but I couldn't stay there anymore. 

I rushed out of the library and felt like I couldn't catch my breath. 

I rushed to my dorm room and began to cry. I just couldn't do it. 

I didn't want to be around new people. 

I cried for a little more. 

I stayed in my room for about an hour.

I remembered my dad saying something about me going on a walk sometimes just so I don't feel cooped up in my room. To get some fresh air, even if it is after I cry. That I'll end up getting depressed if I only spend my time in my room. 

So that is what I did. 

After crying for a bit, I calmed down and decided I could go for a walk, just around campus. 

I locked my door and walked to the elevator. 

I made it outside and decided to walk around for a bit. 

I walked for a bit and then sat on a bench. The sight was calming. It didn't feel all that loud where I was sitting. You were able to see a few people walking around here and there, whether it be with a dog or with a bookbag, or with someone else. 

It was a nice sight.

"Oi, you're the young one Erwin introduced us to right?" I heard someone say to me. 

I looked towards them and got really tense. 

"Listen I'm not going to hurt you. But it isn't common for someone to react that way when meeting someone. That much I know. Are you ok?" He said to me. 

"I get nervous around people is all." I said looking down to the ground. 

He sat down next to me and I didn't like that. 

"That much I can tell. Why are you nervous and scared around people? I know that because you look scared right now." He said looking at me. 

"Just... stuff happened in high school." I said wanting to get away. 

"Stuff. Sounds hard. I guess that would explain why you would want to get away from that place. High school wasn't the best for me either. People are so uptight and only want things from you when it benefits them." He had said. I looked at him. 

That's kind of how it went with Eren. He only wanted me around for his amusement. 

"So I'm assuming you went through something similar." He said with a straight face. 

"How did you know?" I asked him. 

"This is the first time you are directly looking at me. That's how I know. And plus, when I said that you had a readable face saying that that is similar to what you went through." He said. 

"Oh." That was all I was able to say. 

"Do you want to talk about it? It is never good to keep it bottled up inside of you. You have to vocalize these things something." He said looking off in the distance. 

I kept quiet. 

"You don't seem up to it. Well whenever you want to talk about it just let me know. I'm sure we'll see each other more often because of Erwin. I'll see you around." He said as he got up and walked away. 

Maybe I do need to get this stuff off of my chest.  

I completely forgot that guy's name. 

But like he said we would see each other around. He is Erwin's friend after all. 

I walked back to my door and felt a little refreshed. I think I really just needed a little talk, even if that guy was doing majority of the talking. 

It can also just be the fact that he kind of knew what it felt like, what I was feeling. Of course, It might have been on different levels, but he know of it to some degree. 

Maybe I will be able to open up to Erwin and his friends. 

Work on not seeing people as the enemy. 

I'll try and open up just a little more.