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Dear diary,
Today Miyoung and I spent time together rebuilding the treehouse. It's crazy how much she can help me.
When I'm around her it feels as if nothing has changed and that we never drifted apart. But really, I know I'm to blame for hurting her that way. I tried to tell her today...about hurting myself that is, but I saw her smile and I saw how happy she was and couldn't bare to be the cause of her sadness...not again.
I definitely feel more alive now than I have in the past five years, but this ongoing battle I have with my demons is getting tiring and I want nothing more than to give up and call it quits. I can't though. My mum and dad, they have such high hopes for me, and I know they love me dearly.
Every time I try to convince myself that carrying on is worth it, a pit of hopelessness grows within and I can't help but feel like I'm fighting for nothing.
I know I can't give up on everyone though. My parents, Miyoung and the Kims.
