Continuing the cycles

Scary

-Autumn-
February 3rd 2021
3:38 AM
Past

-Flashback-

I sat on the toilet with tears rolling down my face this hurts so bad I was losing yet another child due to stress and Lucas wasn't here for me...

I cleaned myself up and went into the empty room that was supposed to be the babies room and cried

"Autumn" I heard Lucas come into the house I didn't answer

"Autumn!" He said louder

"Aye Autumn" I heard him come up the stairs I was hurting so bad that I couldn't even move

He opened the door

"You ain't here me calling you?" He asked I brought my knees to my chest and cried

"I lost the baby" I sobbed

"Come on I just bought some groceries" He ignored me and walked out the room I stood up and walked after him

"What the hell Lucas your just gonna ignore me?" I stood behind him

"I can't deal with this I got shit to do right now" He brushed me off

"Like what I'm your girlfriend and this could've been our child?"

"Is Armani not enough for you?!" He asked as he took the groceries out of the bags

"Lucas it's not like that you weren't here for me-"

He grabbed my arms and shook me

"What do you want me to do huh what do you want me to do?!" He yelled

"I want you to love me! I want you to be here for me!" I yelled as tears ran down my face his face softened and he hugged me as I sobbed into his shirt

"I can't do it anymore Lucas I'm tired I'm so tired" I cried onto his shoulder

"You can't give up now baby just stay strong" He rubbed my back

"That was supposed to be my baby boy" I sobbed

"I know baby I know" he held me right

"I'm so sorry" I cried

"I'm sorry I couldn't deliver your child" I looked down

He walked back to the counter and took the groceries back out

"Go get cleaned up Autumn" He looked down he couldn't even look at me

"Look at me" I told him

"Look at me!" I demanded he turned to me slowly

He looked me up and down and stopped at my stomach I wasn't that far along in the pregnancy but I did want this child

His eye twitched before he broke down crying

He knocked over the groceries making me jump

"I gotta go" He wiped his nose