Losing Your Memory ° Kai Parker

Chapter 21

The days past and the day of the merge came.

I still hadn't spoke or seen Liv since I avoided her at all costs. I also hadn't really seen Kai much.
I assumed he was probably preparing for the whole thing and I didn't want to be bothering him.

I twisted nervously on my chair at the Salvatore mansion and picked at my untouched food.

"You've been doing this for the past hour Jenn. Just eat it." Stephan said, clearly affected by my nervousness.

He had finished a plate of pancakes he made himself. He was too, afraid of tonight. We had agreed to stay out of the Gemini business since we didn't really have a say on the matter.
But my mind was still clouded with everything that could and would go wrong. It seemed like there wasn't any outcome that wouldn't cause any trouble.

If Luke died, we would have to face not just Liv's wrath but also Joshua's and I didn't know what scared me the most.
I knew that if Liv found out I knew her brother was heading towards his own death and I didn't tell her or tried to stop him, she would hate me.
And if she knew I was hooking up with Kai she would probably kill me.
All rightfully so.

But if Kai died... That thought scared me even more. I didn't want to loose him. I still couldn't figure out what I was feeling. I knew it was lust, sure and for some reason I felt a weird sense of protection towards him, that I didn't know where it came from.
If he died I didn't even know how we could get Bonnie and Damon back.

"Will we be there?" I asked Stephan who had his back facing me, while he was doing the dishes.

He slowly turned around and leaned back on the counter.

Me and Stephan always got along. With Damon it was different. I actually didn't really get along with him despite the fact that I had a crush on him. In fact we used to fight all the time, mostly because I would start arguments.

"Elena suggested we be close but I don't know Jennifer." He admitted.

I nodded my head, thinking what would be the best option.

"I can't wait until they do it to find out. " I said after a few seconds.

He crossed his arms over his chest and stared at me.
"And what would be the best outcome for  you? Liv is your friend, I know that, but it seems like there's more about Kai than simply using him to get Bonnie and Damon back."

I listened in shock at Stephan's observation. He wasn't stupid obviously he knew something was up. But this definitely wasn't the time for me to open my heart to him.
"There's nothing more Stephan." I dismissed him and brought my own dish on the sink.

There was a small silence, that felt like it lasted forever and then he spoke again.

"All I want for you is to be safe and happy. But you need to be careful." He said.

I looked around nervously. I really didn't want to do this conversation. Not until I had figured out what my feelings were.

"Don't worry Stephan. I know what I am doing." No I certainly had no idea what I was doing. But I wasn't sure what the right answer would have been.

He simply nodded and dropped the subject.

At that moment the door opened and Elena walked in followed by Caroline.

I still felt awful towards Caroline for the way just had spoken her that day at their dorm. I was so selfish with my own problems and she had her mother dying from cancer.

"Hey." They both mattered and took a sit at the table.

"How is your mum Care?" I asked, hoping I didn't upset her.