Chapter 11

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How can I decide what's right?
When you're clouding up my mind

Jennifer's pov

To say what Kai did raised some questions, would be an understatement.

Elena bombarded me with questions, left and right. She was certain I was lying to her and for a good reason.
I was staying with Stephan at their home again since there was no border anymore, they could return and it felt so good to be able to be around my friends in our home town.
Everyone was slightly grateful to Kai for doing that but none would admit that.

I was up in one of the rooms. Stephan suggested that I sleep in Damon's room since it was more big and I would be more comfortable but I declined. The thought of sleeping in one of the beds Damon and my sister were sleeping together made me feel nauseated.

I was laying in the bed with a book in my hands but my eyes couldn't focus on the words. All I could think about was Kai.
What he did... he did it on purpose. I had a feeling he wanted to cause problems between me and them.
I sighed and rested my head on the pillow.

The sounds of rocks hitting the window stopped my train of thought.
Frowning I reluctantly walked over to the window and peaked down.

I was shocked to see Kai, in his smug little face.
He winked at me and I rolled my eyes.

I didn't know what he wanted but I also didn't want to find out so I turned by back to the window and I decided to get some sleep.
The moment I turned around I saw him. He was standing right there in front of me. In my room.

I'd lie if I said I wasn't afraid of him, even though I didn't think he would hurt me. I stared at him, waiting for him to open his mouth and say whatever narcissistic thought he had in his brain.
But he didn't.

"How are you Jenny?" He crossed his arms over his chest.

I chuckled and sat on the bed.
"Well let's look at what happened. My friends are still in the prison world and we have to worry about you who want to revenge people who have done nothing to you." I looked in his eyes. Waiting for an answer.

He looked a bit more serious now. Or a bit more angry. It was hard to tell the difference between these two with Kai.

"I wasn't lying about the Ascendant you know. I did destroy it. I wanted to make sure they wouldn't send me back in that place. But there are other ways for your friends to get out. As for the revenge talk.
You don't know anything about it. " He didn't look back while he talked. Instead he was looking around the room, picking up random stuff.

"What is the way? " I asked. I didn't know if Kai was lying to me but I couldn't accept a world where Damon and Bonnie wouldn't be here with us.

"I am not going to tell you Jenn." He picked the book that I was reading.

His eyebrows shot up.
"Goethe The Sorrows of Young Werther. " He read the title.

"I didn't take you for a hopeless romantic and a lover of classics Jenn." He opened the book and flipped through the pages.

I grabbed the book from his hands. It did surprise me that Kai had read that book and I felt and odd sense of embarrassment whenever someone saw what I read or saw one of my paintings.

"I would have never have thought Kai Parker would read. Let alone something like that." I couldn't help but smile a bit as I said that.

"I love reading. You don't have much to do when you spend 18 years alone. Plus don't forget I am older than you." He sat on the bed and layed back.

"Well yeah you would have been what 40? But since you had been stuck for 18 years you also stuck at 22." I shoved his legs out of my bed. I hated people who layed on the bed with their shoes.

It was like he realized that and took his shoes off, then layed again on the bed.

"Why are you here Kai? Do you want to just talk about books or do you want something? " I asked him.

Kai rested his head on the pillow, hands on his stomach.
"I wanted to see you. Quite frankly I don't know why. The truth is me being completely honest I hadn't seen a girl in 18 years and I liked you. Surely I thought it would benefit me to make you like me in order to get out but I also liked playing with you. It was fun... and kinda hot. I guess that's why I am here now."

I heard him rumble for quite some time. I processed what he said. In my mind I knew that I felt the same. I, for whatever reason, was drawn to him. But guilt made me not want to do anything.

When I didn't respond he continued.
"I can see you want it too." He turned and propped his head in his palm.

He lifted one hand and placed it on my stomach.
The part of the skin he was touching instantly felt like it was on fire.
My breathing got heavier as I tried not to concentrate on that feeling.

But it was all I could think about.

He dragged his hand a bit lower just over the top of my jeans and massaged the exposed skin on my belly.

"Shit." I whispered.

He hadn't done anything big and here I was panting like crazy. Note to self to leave the house more.

"You don't want to fight it anymore." Kai's voice was a whisper and it made me want him even more.

I let him do what he wanted. Maybe if I did it just one time it would die off.

He got to his knees and got on top of me.
He slightly lifted my shirt and kissed my stomach.
I breathed in at the warm feeling and closed my eyes.

He licked the skin there and lifted my shirt even more to expose my chest.

I expected to feel awkward and nervous but it felt nothing like it.
It felt so right.

Kai pulled aside my bra and kissed the top of my nipple.

My hands shot to his hair, but instead of pulling him away, I pulled him closer.

I looked down  to see a dark look in his eyes.

It matched my own.

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