Trial and Error (The Fun Gilbert Book 6)

Chapter 36- Death...Sort Of

Niklaus's P.O.V.

~1767~

Why can't everything ever go well in my life? It's as if whatever higher power there is out there wishes nothing more than my complete and total misery. As though it wasn't bad enough that I had been cursed to be a bastard and raised by a man who hated me even before he knew I wasn't his child, every woman I ever loved has died.

First, there was Jessica who was killed by Mikael. That was the worse despite the fact that I had managed to bring her back. It was devastating because it had happened right after Henrik had been killed by the wolves. Then to top it all off, after bringing her back, she had compelled me and the rest of my family to forget she ever existed, something we only remembered on account of becoming vampires.

Then I met Aurora, who I must admit isn't actually dead but I very much wish she were, and then I met Jessica once more, only for Mikael to kill her again. After losing the one person I could ever love with everything I have in me, I decided to merely fuck my way through my eternal life. Until I met Vivianne. She was beautiful, reminded me of Jessica right away. It wasn't until after I had lost her that I realized that she didn't simply have a similar personality, she looked nearly identical to her. It was nothing but a small difference in eye color, that distinguished the two.

Yet, just as with Jessica, I had failed to save Vivianne. Not only had I failed to save her, but Elijah and I lit the very gun powder that blew her up. I did everything I could to bring her back. Acquired a witch that was willing and even made a life with her, but Vivianne didn't come back right and she knew it. She asked me to kill her the second time. She couldn't bear to be the...thing she had become and I loved her too much to ask her to be that.

That was the moment I decided that I would never love any woman again. Evidently, it was at that same time that I decided to undagger Kol. Kol was always up for a good time and, unlike Elijah, was not afraid to admit that he had loved Jessica just as much as I. He still mourned her death and as a result, had determined that he could never love anyone more than Jessica so he too would just fuck and feed his way through his existence which made him the perfect companion for me.

Or so I thought. As each night passes, I grow more and more disdainful of Kol's presence. It's as though he wishes Mikael to find us and as lonely as I find myself, I fear Kol's presence is not the answer. That was, until he met Ophelia. He compelled her to let him feed on her but other than that, he left her mind untouched, something that I came to adore.

Ophelia was quick-witted and kind but let's just say that Rebekah was more her type than Kol or myself. The only reason that she found her way to Kol was because she was nothing more than a peasant yet I don't understand why that stopped her from finding someone. She was beautiful and brilliant which now that I think about it may be why she could only get my brother. People don't believe women should be intelligent and I fear that I may have been the same way had it not been for Jessica.

Jessica was the very reason that I turned Ophelia. I learned that it wasn't her status that made her seek a husband but rather her younger brother. Her mother had died giving birth to him and even as a peasant, her father believed he wasn't enough so Ophelia did everything she could to ensure that her father's attention wasn't on him, something I learned while listening to her plague-induced hallucinations. That was what made me turn her and I do believe it was the best decision I ever made.

This is what I'm thinking as I teach her to feed. I had recently daggered Kol so everything was up to me. "Now you must stop, Lia." She obeys instantly. "Now look into her eyes and tell her to forget, you have to believe it yourself if you wish it to work." Ophelia does as I instruct and it works instantly. I knew she would make a good vampire. "See, it is as easy as that. And you will be able to be whoever you wish and be with whoever you wish," he vows.